:: eLise is me ::: October 2007

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

La vie est Belle <>

Never perfect.

Jess babe once told me that it's better to be loved than to love.
That a girl is born to be pampered and cared for by the man.

So who do you choose?
The one you love, or the one who loves you.

Can love really be nurtured as time passes?

Why are you so silly as to keep waiting when there's already someone else, and you don't even mind?

And why are you always there when I fall?

Of all the "what-ifs".
I still can't get over my own defense.

Walk away from me and find your own happiness.

Stop saying I'm "the one".

Monday, October 29, 2007

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Head over heels

With Gunther von Hagens.

Even though the way he speaks is really annoying, but his beautiful mind is such a huge turn on. Not to mention that he's an Anatomist. The work he does is so interesting and profound, and literally "to die for".

Oh my gosh.
I'm totally gushing over him.

I'm gonna apologise for saying this, but I wanna jump him!
Sorry for my language people.

I seriously can't help it.
The brain is the sexiest thing to me, wayyy above fantastic beach abs.

Not only is he an intelligent individual, but also a non-conformist!
The two greatest characteristics bound into one.

I think I'm gonna leave it here and go hyperventilate.

*lalalalalalalalalala*

Saturday, October 27, 2007

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Ça ne fait rien

It's not about having physical possession of him, or being on his mind and in his thoughts, or having his time. It's not about pining for him, or feeling bitter because you can't have him.

It's about him holding a special place in your heart, and of those little things which doesn't have romance written all over it.

It's about how the thought of him gives you a warm tingling feeling inside, and the smile he puts on your face when he says hi.

It's about the sense of security arising from his reassurances, the empowerment when he says he believes in you, and that gounded feeling knowing he is there.

Sometimes life gets so crazy and the only thing keeping you sane is him.

Sometimes people pile on so much problems on you, and the only thing keeping the cookie from crumbling is him.

It is these insignificant moments which light up the gloomy days, wipe away the tears, motivate you to fight on, and make you want to be a better person.

So at the end of the day, it really doesn't matter whether we have the courage to cross that line, or of the impending regret from not doing anything about it.

Because the future cannot be told and the past cannot be undone.

Let's just be glad that it happened, that the special place in your heart is filled.

Even if it's just the mere thought of him.

Friday, October 26, 2007

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Let's PARTY!

Had graduation dinner last night and am officially an alumni of Canning College Class of 2007!

Woot!

Take that people!

But damn, the finals are coming up.

%*(#*^(&#(*^@(*)^

ANYWAY, had so much fun that I'm feeling downright sick in the stomach now.

I suppose all the laughing-so-hard-till-I-fall-to-the-ground and silly antics of mine are making me want to hurl now.

Too much fun is not necessarily always the best thing.

Oh my gosh.

Sick to the stomach.

Want to hurl.

*green face*

Excuse me while I go lie on the bed and hug my baby in an attempt to feel better.

Photos galore from the dinner, but mostly of myself!

Muahahaha.

Shut up.

Don't want to write anymore.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

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Heart's desire.

Give me a chance.

That's all I ask for.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

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D'oh !

Lips are infected.
Again.

Gonna swell into Angelina Jolie proportion.
Not sexy.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

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One of those days

Maybe I don't want anymore, maybe I don't care anymore.

The starvation from familiarity is sapping all the energy out of me.

Maybe it's time to head back to my comfort zone.

It is almost a year and yet I still feel this way.

Some days, the absence of everyone and everything hurts so much that I huddle up in a bunch, crying alone in the corner.

There is so many things which I miss.

Especially the people.

The people who show their silly sides, the people who enjoys some crazy fun.

Those unpretentious and unconditional love from them.

Always there without any motive, always there because they care.

A place I call my home, with people I call my loves.

I just want to go home, because some times it hurts so much.

Growing up is tough and no doubt, I have grown so much.

But some days, I just want to be that little girl brimming with smiles over the kitty pen her Dad bought for her.

Some days, I just want to be that birthday girl so filled with love by a surprise candle on her piece of Golden Rush at NYDC.

Some days, I just want to be that big sister bloviating to her brother who pretends not to listen but actually is.

Some days, I just want to be that friend having dinner with her bestie at Crystal Jade.

Some days, I just want to be that blushing girl on a date with her crush.

Some days, I just want to be all that I used to be.

Today, is one of those days.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

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Pissed

One person's irresponsibility can drag the ENTIRE team down.

Inefficiency and ineffectiveness cause blemished services to customers, leaving bad experiences.

Word of mouth is a very powerful tool.

Don't work if you have such LOUSY work ethics.

Casual work is still work. And you are PAID for it.

If you want a listening ear or even advice, be grateful that people take time out to be patient and hear you bloviate.

Don't snuff people's advices just because you've heard it before from others, or that it's not what you WANT to hear.

If you want someone to agree with you, talk to YOURSELF.

And DON'T infer.

Don't drone on INCESSANTLY on how people is responsible for your failure.

You are responsible for your own actions.

Don't try to VICTIMISE yourself by sending others on a guilt trip.

I admit that I lack a sensitivity chip once in a while. But if you can't handle straight truth from me, then piss off.

I'm not here to tell you sugar-coated words to stroke your bloody egos.

I rather knock some sense than string you like a kite.

Take it or leave it.

I'm NOT obliged to be your Aunt Agony or ego masturbator.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

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Lily Allen - Littlest Things

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your missus
All the play fighting, all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right, but it seems unfair
That things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinking tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could tell that I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There's no one in the world who could replace you

[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

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Physics under the Sun

I only just realised that I'm back to my original skin tone.

My tan line from Summer is gone.

The good thing of having a backyard.

Who says you can only sun tan by the beach or the pool?

And not to mention privacy from invading eyes.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

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Latest Addiction

Monday, October 08, 2007

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I think . . .

I love him.

But I don't know for sure.

What is love anyway?

Best not to think about it.

Best not to go there.

But I think I love him.

I think.

Friday, October 05, 2007

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The Past

From the moment I saw your eyes lit up when you caught sight of her, I guessed she was the one.

But now I'm even more convinced, because you're willing to be seen with her, and to let your friends know about her.

I once said that I'll let you go if that's what will make you happy.
I stood by my words.

Seeing the way you are now, I'm glad I did just that.

Having at least a person happy, is better than having two unhappy.

I wish you the best of luck with her.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

La vie est Belle <>

Guys.

They are so over-rated.

Seriously.