:: eLise is me ::: October 2006

Sunday, October 29, 2006

La vie est Belle <>

Feeling Girlie Jolly

Hasn't been sleeping well recently and by 7pm last night, I was already feeling darn tired.
Struggled to keep myself awake for a few more hours but I finally surrended at 10pm.
Flopped myself into bed and switched off my cell cos I wanted to wake up naturally the next day.

And my oh my did I wake up early. Switched on my cell and checked my inbox, and that's when I realised that I had to go raya-ing (as farhana coined it) with my sistas & my lovely Mich today!

I was so tired last night that it completely slipped my mind.

(-_-")

And so in a couple more hours, I'll be having photo rendezvous with my beloved!
YEAH ! ! !

Ok. Gonna go get ready now.
Hahaha!

And yeah, just wanna comment on Bodyshop's Peppermint Cooling Foot Lotion. Its like a miracle lotion I tell ya. I'm totally digging their products!

Alrighty. Better scram now.
Love you people!

*lots of hugs*

Saturday, October 28, 2006

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Flimsy gown

Headed off to town early in the morning.
Oh heck. I've been rising & shining bright & early everyday for the past 4 days.
So unlike of me. Elise the sleepy head!

9am :

Sat around waiting for registration and then more sitting around after making payment. The people in the MRI room were singing away. Lol.

Finally my turn came and I was told to change into this flimsy pink gown.
Gosh! It's slightly translucent and I felt so embarrassed!
I had to cross my arms the whole time to not feel so exposed.

*blush blush*

And then the part which I hated...
Being pressed against the machine.

The whole thing lasted for less than a minute & cost $63. Hmm... Is that considered cheap or expensive?

10am :

Headed off to Paragon for the next medical, which was relatively brief & easy.
Urine test, eye test, height & weight (1.62m, 48.3kg), blood pressure check (120/76?), breathing test & some tap tap on my tummy.

Speaking of which, I always goes into a giggling fit whenever doctors do the "tap tap" on my tummy. I just can't help it. It's so ticklish!

And so that ends my medical trip. My last medical before this was 3 years ago. Which I have to go for before starting poly.

Hmm...
I wonder what else is next?

Friday, October 27, 2006

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Communication Channel & the BIG HARD COLD Machine

For the past few days (especially today), I've been having lots of email exchange with people. With regards to formal matters and personal ones alike.
And I must say . . .

I'm starting to like this mode of communication ! ! !

Hahaha.
Well I guess I better learn to get used to this form of communication channel, as I'll most likely be utilizing it frequently in future.

Aahhh...

The advancement of technology.

And yesh, I've changed my blog template. Despite me declaring aloud that I will not change it again.

Aahhh...

The fickle-minded-ness of Elise.
Hee !

I changed it cos I realise things are gonna be different from now on.
New beginning, new experience, new environment.
How about a new blog template?

It would be jolly well perfect!
So there you go.

Anyway, I'll be going for a medical tomorrow and I'm dreading it. Cos I absolutely hate the X-Ray part. The BIG HARD COLD machine. And I'll be squashed against it! Doesn't feel welcoming at all you know.?!

And I've no idea if there's gonna be any blood test. I'm guessing it's highly likely.
The thought of that just makes me go *shudders*.

I bitched about it to my brother and he started taunting me, and asked me to stop behaving like a kid.

And I said . . .
"I look like one so I shall behave like one!"

That's because of my new hairstyle. I've snipped it off. As usual.
No more feminine-soft-flowing-shoulder-cascading hair.
Just short.sharp.above.the.shoulder hair.

And looks kind of kiddish!
Oh! And 2 person commented that I look like a Vietnam girl!

! ! !

Hmm... Gonna go off now. Being using the computer for a whole day.
Alrighty, gonna watch telly now.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

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Enough for now.

I'm constantly trying to figure you out.
You're a real mystery and a complex knot to undo.
Or maybe you just appear that way.

Your words and your actions differ for miles, and its driving me crazy.
Or maybe it's just ME driving MYSELF crazy.

Who am I to figure you out?
I'm just adding problems to my already mountainous load in the closet.

And so now I'm officially declaring that I've had enough of you.
I'm gonna STOP trying to figure you out.
I'm gonna STOP trying to guess what's on your mind.

Cos right now I've got so many things to do, and it's tiring enough.
I don't need an extra source to sap up what's left of me.

Oh darn it.
Who am I trying to kid?
I'm a silly fool, but I'll do my best to be ME again.

Ignore those little flutters Elise!
IGNORE!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

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H.O.T

Tata Young - El nin yo

I can't believe I got so turned on by her new video!
What a sexy biatch!

Ohh-la-la ~ !

*! sizzling !*

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

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I would really love . . .

To walk around my house in a fitted t-shirt and boy shorts!
That's the most comfortable outfit to slack around in.
In My Opinion, that is.

But I'm not as brazen yet,
thus I'll have to wait till I have my own apartment.
Ohh! That's still a long way to go yeah?
Tsk tsk.

I'll have to make do with P.E shorts for now then.

Monday, October 23, 2006

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Lie, Lies, & more of it.

Liar liar, pants on fire.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

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On Love

Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable.

It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.

You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask for it.

They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more.

Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.

It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so working its way into your heart.

It hurts.
Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love.

- Neil Gaiman

Saturday, October 14, 2006

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Little Little Happenings.

Work has been really interesting. Get to learn new stuff, make new friends, and earn some money. The downside of it though, is that they tend to view me as an outsider as I've yet to sign the employment letter.

I totally understand where they're coming from.
As long as I have yet to sign the employment letter, it means that I can just leave anytime.

Whatever it is, I'm not gonna leave. Cos no matter what, I'm gonna work. And since they have taught me so much stuff, I don't see the need to go somewhere else. And afterall, it's only a 3 months work stint for me.

And that just more or less sums up my work.

As for personally, right now I'm in the midst of arranging some stuff. But I'm not gonna reveal it yet till there's a definite answer. But I'm rather certain that it's almost a sure fire issue. It's just a matter of handling the required paperwork and meeting up with this and that for now.

Having the adults guide and help me, things are definitely easier. Compared to handling everything by myself. And I got help from a really sweet friend. Which definitely made things so much easier.

And so to you guys, thank you so so so much.

And that's it for now I guess. Will update more about it soon.

One bad thing though. I'm developing a really really unhealthy habit now.
My body is starting to suffer the consequences.
Trembling hands, rubbery legs, sensitive to temperature changes, feeling tired easily, etc etc.

Trying hard to kick this habit. It's starting to consume me.
If I continue doing such harm to myself, I'll end up in the hospital soon.
It's a psychological problem I think.
All in the mind.
What a pea brain.

Haha.

Anyway, recently had a talk with my brother. The things he said made so much sense. I actually need him to enlighten me. Hmm...

Touched on a really sensitive topic. To me that is.
My brother didn't even remember when it happened, and how many years it's been. That kind of shocked me, cos I thought he'll be as affected by it as I am.

But apparently not.

It's been a tough 7 years. And I sill get really emotional over it.
They say time heals everything.
Its not true.

Some things can never be healed.
Never.

Alright, gonna end here. Feeling really down now.
Within the short span of a week, many things happened.
And all this events varies from one extreme end of the emotional scale to the other.

Somebody please steal my emotions from me.
Thank you very much.

Friday, October 13, 2006

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The Unveil

It's really nice to finally see you.
Excited, flustered, happy, scared.

But feeling really shy.
That's for sure.

I never thought I'll feel this way. But apparently I do.
All the jitters and butterflies in the stomach.

How silly of me.

Anyway, why do I feel like something's not the same anymore?

Will the absence of the mysteriousness affect the privilege of having no boundaries when talking to each other?
Will you and I start restricting ourselves?

There's always the joke of "you don't know who I am".
But now it's gone.

Tell me.
Is it just me or do you feel the same way too?

Hmm...
Maybe I'm just being silly.

*sheepish grin*

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

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Damn that table !

Hit my right foot against the table and there goes my little toe.

My wiggly wiggly cute little toe.

Now it's all swollen and purplish, and not to mention, kind of crooked.
Whined about it to my brother and he said it'll heal.

But it's all swollen and purplish (which is normal), but crooked!
Is that normal?

I'm so afraid it will not heel and I will have an ugly right foot forever and ever.

Heal little right toe.
HEAL!

Heal my wiggly wiggly toe.
HEAL!

Oh, and did I mention it hurts to walk?
I think my feet did something bad in the previous life.
I seriously do think so.

Hahaha!

I'm crazy.
Ignore me.
Too much pain.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

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Kenny's : MacRitchie : Brown Eyed Girl

Had dinner with CS on thursday at his favourite Kenny's Roger.
Enlistment is coming real soon for my buddy so it's kind of a get together.

Hmm...

Wonder how life is gonna be like for him in the CD.
Heard that it's a really slack place to be in.
But whatever it is, just enjoy yourself friend.

And yesh!
I finally fulfilled both my wishes to trek Bukit Timah & MacRitchie.
Hohoho.

It's real funny while trekking and as usual, I gave Jerome the chance to laugh his head off at me.

*pretends to be angry*

Anyway, I'm quite a looney head to go trekking in canvas shoe!
Ended up real ugly.

And so now in order not to stretch the injuries, which will cause the new skin to break and bleed, I had to tiptoe around the house!
And man it hurts to bath.

But looking at the bright side, I appear taller tiptoeing around!
Hahaha.

Oh yeah, and that means no high heels for me for awhile!
Boohoo!
Ahh...
Then I rather hide in my house and not go out.
Hahaha.

Anyway, went to get myself a new pair of specs. This time I went for red cos I've been donning black for a year plus and no more dull color for now.

And since my perm contact len is gonna expire in a couple of months, I've decided to stick to wearing specs for most of the time instead.
Most probably will be getting a couple of boxes of daily len, instead of getting new perm ones.

And speaking of which, I've always wanted to get myself a pair of green contact len.
I've tried blue back during my post secondary school years.

But then I kept having a battle with myself.
Should I try green?
But then I've got brown eyes.
Should I get green?
Or just continue flaunting my original color?

And in the end, decided to just stick to my own color.
I'll just try green some other time.

Oh yeah, and here's a couple of narcissistic moments when I woke up one fine early morning!

Wahaha!

Thursday, October 05, 2006

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Again.

I lose sleep again.
Went to bed at 2am but only manage to fall asleep at 8am.
Slept for only 4 hours as I've got stuff to do.

I'm starting to feel the effect of all this lost of sleep.
I'm starting to fall sick.

But oh well, looking on the bright side, at least I had a rather nice dream this morning to compensate for it all.

=D

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

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Kissable Lips & Overwhelming Fear.

: Sexy Pouts :

Recently I discovered I have a love affair with sexy kissable lips. Like Korea actress Kim Sun Ah's and Angelina Jolie's.
But I've never ever seen a guy's lips that fits my own standard of sexy and kissable.

Until yesterday.

His lips is just so naturally rosy and full.
It does looks kind of odd though. Like it's been surgically enhanced.
Maybe he has collagen injections. Or maybe its just so naturally bee stung looking. Haha.

I was so mersmerised by his lips that I nearly blurted out what I thought of his lips!
Horror of all horror!
What was I thinking about?!

Anyway, that concludes my wonderful afternoon of meeting a hunky and dashing guy with very sexy and extremely kissable lips.

Hohoho.

: Fear :

I was really excited yesterday and ended up smiling all the way for quite some time. Like some dumb ass love struck girl. Damn it.

(nothing to do with mr. kissable lips)

Haha.

Well the rush of happiness and exhilaration lasted for around an hour plus, and then the real deal sets in. Total fear.

I started thinking about lots of things which I've already thought about, but began to think about again because the others asked me about them. Ahh...

And ended up?

I couldn't fall asleep last night.
I hit the sack at 2.30am but only manage to get to dreamland at 6am.

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

And right now, just by thinking about it again, I'm experiencing the fear. It's so fearful that I'm having cold feet and hands!
Seriously!

Damn. Like I told Jerome, I'm scared. But he said I'll be alright cos I'm a girl full of luck.
Hmm...
Thanks man. But still, I'm scared. Hee.

=)

Ok ok. Better stop mentioning about it. Or I will die from anticipation and fear.

*run away in fear*

Monday, October 02, 2006

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The clip & the meet up.

Was watching Steph's clip just now and I got real excited. All the excitement produces such a crazy rush of adrenaline in me that I thought I was gonna die from the chaotic palpitating of my heart!
Seriously!

Wow ~

Just by watching her clip alone and I'm already going through such emotional turmoil. I wonder how I'll feel when my turn comes.
I think I'll just drop dead from an overload of anticipation, excitement and happiness!
LOL.

Seriously, I'm wishing and hoping so hard for my turn to come.
Please please please.

I've already done my best and now it's up to the higher power.
Please let me pass this test.
Please!

And to you, I've kept my part of the promise. So please make do your part of it.
I trust you to do so, just like how I've trusted you for the past 3 years of our trade-off. Don't fail me. Cos this is the most important thing to me right now. Thanks.

Anyway, I'm feeling so excited about meeting Ed tomorrow.
So excited that I'm doing my nails, and my outfit's already been picked and ironed out. Hanging beautifully in one corner now.
Haha. How much more anxious can I be?!

Hmm...

Steph's clip brought an awakening in me.
I finally know who I am and what I wanna be.
I'm not supposed to be so lonely, anti-social, and all coped up.
I'm not supposed to cry and mourn over the unfortunate events that happened to me.
I'm not supposed to be feeling downright worthless and affected by what other people say of me.

And most importantly, I'm not supposed to be feeling unloved.
No matter how neglected and ugly I feel, I mustn't give up on Life and to stop loving myself.

That's not the person I am inside.

Thank you Steph, for making me realise that.
I'm beginning to believe that the decision I made is not a mistake afterall.
I'm just being true to myself.
I'm just making my dream come true.

And thanks to India Arie's "Just for Today".
It made me realise that life is short, and that nobody knows what's to come tomorrow.

I will do my best everyday.

I don't know what's gonna happen, but that's alright with me.
I'm gonna open up my arms and embrace the mystery.

And to CS, I'm mighty sorry for ignoring you recently.
I just wanna be alone.
But hey, I'm ok now.
Thanks for everything dude.
Thanks for the concern.

And to all friends out there whom I've neglected over the past few weeks, please do know that I still love you guys as much as before. If not more.

And to my lovely Farhana, sorry for not replying you in MSN and SMS.
Hee. It's my fault girlfriend.
But I still love you that much.
You know that.

Alrighty! Good luck to myself for tomorrow!
I'll need all the luck I can get.