Sunday, July 30, 2006
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Perhaps . . .



If you've said "I want you", I'll have said "yes".


Or maybe it's just another excuse of mine, not to say it.





Thursday, July 27, 2006
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. . .


Not feeling well today.

Ok. Gonna go lie down now.

Bye.




Wednesday, July 26, 2006
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My new love.


Watched Superman Returns.

Not gonna talk about it.

Cos if I do, the whole entry will be filled with
"SUPERMAN! SUPERMAN! SUPERMAN!"
and
"BRANDON ROUTH! BRANDON ROUTH! BRANDON ROUTH!"

Haha.





Tuesday, July 25, 2006
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Movie & Dinner.


Watched Nacho Libre with my brother today. It was quite funny but all in all, I'll not really recommend you to watch it. Unless you're looking for some no brainer laughter.

But there's a message in the movie though.

That nothing is impossible.

It also shows the beauty of friendship and love.

Went shopping after the movie while my brother headed for the arcade.

Bought a couple of stuff and now I'm almost broke. Haha.



A really interesting tag on the top. Well I'm not sure if I'm supposed to cut it off. But seeing the scissors symbol, I just cut along the dotted lines.


Intricate stitching on the top. Overall, it is kind of see through.



And by the way, I've gotten myself the Esprit membership card.
So if you guys wanna get anything, you can look for me.
Maybe 10% off isn't much. But its still discount anyway!



Really cute design on the button. And ohh... POLKA-DOTS!






If you know me, I'm not really a big fan of belts. But then I realised how different 1 outfit could be when paired with different belts. And adding on the fact that the gold belt was really cute after putting it on. Looks like a ribbon or something!







Headed to Billy Bomber for dinner. I'm starting to get sick of the fries there.







This bottle is really interesting! Ok. Maybe bottles like this are EVERYWHERE. But it's a bottled root beer. Oh, and I took the bottle home. Gonna use it as a vase. Wahaha!


The spinach with cream side proved too much for me cos the taste was kind of overwhelming and I got sick of it after only consuming half of it.

So a day well spent and I'm kind of tired. Gonna go watch my favourite CSI now!

Bye ~

I cooked yesterday, and I'm just done with washing my clothes. So what is gonna happen tomorrow?





Monday, July 24, 2006
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Once in a Blue Moon.


Today is one of those rare days when I feel like cooking something. And thus I decided to go for an omelette.

Firstly, we need some button mushrooms.


Cut them into pieces.



And then comes the lead character.
The Eggs ~



Crack crack!

Ok. I broke one yoke. My skill isn't that up to standard yet.



After adding some pepper & salt, beat it up.
You can do it karate style if you like.



And then comes the cooking part.




And tada!

My masterpiece.



Was halfway through it when I realise why it tastes so weird.

Cos I'm supposed to add in campbell mushroom and I forgot about it!

Haha. Shall do it again some other time.





Sunday, July 23, 2006
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Another great bonding.


Went for dinner with Daddy-O & 2 monkey brothers again and had the almost-same dishes again.







Oh well, by request of little brother.

Surprise surprise!
He came over yesterday and stayed for the night.
Hmm. Didn't even let us know about it.
What a little devil.

Dinner was great, as usual. And some issues were being talked about. I really love the word "communicate" more and more.
It really is VERY important to communicate with your parents.

And by communicating effectively, it's bringing us closer as a family.
And I'm glad.

Told Daddy about how I felt over the whole i'm-feeling-so-alone-dealing-with-this-whole-issue-myself thing and he told me:

"I've got no experience in this so what can I really say? I trust you to do the right thing."

Oh man...

That old man.

The greatest old man in my life.

The one & only old man whom I love so much.

Thank you Daddy. Though you'll never see this.



Well I'm still pretty much feeling the same about the whole thing, but now that I know for sure that he's there for me every step of the way, perhaps it's not gonna be as bad after all.
Well hopefully.

Sent little monkey home together after dinner and it was so much fun!

Dropped in on Mummy for quite awhile and took lots of her snacks back.
Haha!

She said:
"I didn't know that 2 of my children are being tortured!"

Cos we complained that there's always nothing at home for us to eat.

Oh, what devils we are!
Haha.

Well went over to Clementi with Daddy after that to collect his rent.

I popped a really random question which me and hairy monkey have been wanting to ask him for a long time, and he gave us quite a surprising answer!

And then hairy monkey and I started to plan this and that and everything. But then I realised, I might not be there to participate in it at all, should it happen in the near future.

It sounds so wonderful and all.

But hairy monkey is going to NS soon and I might be away too. And that will leave just Daddy himself alone. I don't want him to be all alone. I don't want him to have to go back home and face the four walls, with no one to talk to.

Oh by the way, it's not like hairy monkey is gonna talk to him much if he's home.
What an idiot.
Haha.

Oh I don't know.

Why am I starting to miss my Daddy when he is just beside me now?

I must be mad.

Shouldn't it be that children often drift further away from their parents as they grow old?
But I'm the direct opposite of it.

I'm starting to cling on closer to my parents as I grow old.
AH!

What a baby I am.

Anyway, my Mummy & Daddy are the 2 greatest person in the world!
Hmm...

Maybe I'll include that 2 monkeys too.

HAHA!




Saturday, July 22, 2006
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Tsk tsk.


It can get really worrying at times.

Do you think my luck is gonna be as great everytime when such issue arises?

Hopefully it still is for this time around.

Pretty please, pretty please.

Let me get through this without a glitch.

My life depends on it!



Friday, July 21, 2006
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Hmm...


Finally did something to kick start my plan into action, and response has been received yesterday.
I must say that they are so much more efficient than some money grabbing organization.
Poof!

Well, the response has been really helpful and now I've got more channels to get moving.
Like finally.

I'm such a lazy beany recently.

Elise, elise.
WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!

Haha.

I must say that getting myself moving and getting the plan to turn into reality is real satisfying.
I shall continue doing so.

Must complete it.

Though I have all the time in the world, it is still better to make sure that everything's set so that I can stop worrying about it everyday, and to have more time to do other things.

And also, should anything crop up at the eleventh hour, it will not be that disastrous cos I'll have plenty of time to eradicate it.

Well well well, I must say I'm feeling rather full of myself right now.

Ok. Gotta be humble mumble.

My head is big enough. Should not let it get any bigger.

So tata! Love you guys.

*muackz*




Thursday, July 20, 2006
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Coldplay - The Scientist



Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry

You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start





Wednesday, July 19, 2006
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I am the Author of my Destiny. Not You.



People tend to generalize, or to judge.


They have their own standard set of measurements, which is basically either against their own, or against that of the norm set by society.

I used to be one of those walking zombies.
I embraced whatever was set before my eyes.
I never ever questioned the "why", the "what", the "how".
I just followed.
Blindly.

And when I finally awoke from the trance I'm in, and decided to take a leap out of this never-ending nightmare, those remaining behind, started to pull me back in.

Their questioning, their doubts, their stares, are like the endless sea of arms in hell trying to pull me back in. Pulling at every living inch of my body.
Sucking me in.

Only the brave survives.
And I'm struggling.
But I plan to survive.
And I will.

I'm trying my best and my hardest to climb out of the pit. I'm stepping on all those gripping arms to advance. And to shake them off to advance.

Is it really that hard to be different?



I do not wish to take the journey taken by most people. I want to decide my own Destiny and decide my own journey.



I want to be the author of my Life penning down every word myself.

I want to be the illustrator of my Life adding all the colors and line myself.

I want to be the editor of my Life correcting all the mistakes myself.

I want to be the publisher of my Life making this book of MY LIFE come true myself.



Simply because it is mine.



Everyone has a Life Project of their own. It is up to them to write their own, or to allow it to be yet another copy-and-paste volume.

And for mine, it's not gonna be another copy-and-paste. It will be magnificent.
It will be ME.



People who see it as being easy and carefree, you're wrong.

People who see it as a waste of time, you're wrong.

People who see it as a mistake, you're wrong.



I have come to a point whereby I no longer wish to share my thoughts, my dreams, and my plans with anyone. Not even those closest to me.

I see no need for that anymore cos all I got were doubts, questions, and sarcasm.

I do not need all those and I see no use of them.

You may laugh at me. You may mock me. You may think I'm building sandcastle in the air. You may think I'm stupid. You may think I will fail. You may think I will not follow through. You may think it is all talk and no actions.

I will not let all these affect me anymore.



So please do not generalize, please do not judge.



Be the audience, if you would.
Sit back and relax and enjoy the process, if you would.
Applaud when it comes to an end, if you would.

But never interfere.


For . . .


I am the Shakespeare of my theatre.
I am the Napoleon of my revolution.
I am the Captain of my vessel.


I am me.





Monday, July 17, 2006
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Trying it out.



Okey dokey Farhana darling, I'm doing this just for you. Just because you're my BFF!
Haha.



~ All About Myself ~


My Name:
Tan Ee Fei
Got myself the name Elise when I'm in Poly cos it's easier for people to remember and for the lecturers and tutors. And also, people often mis-pronounce my chinese name. Close friends call me feifei.

Hobbies:
Reading, swimming, movies, singing, hanging out with friends.

School:
RuLang Primary School, Bukit View Primary School, Hong Kah Primary School, Bukit Batok Secondary School, Nanyang Polytechnic

Work:
Previously - Taco-Bell, DBS
Currently - My Dad's P.A

Horoscope:
Virgo. The perfectionist!

Hair Color:
Black. And I'm proud of it!

Eye Color:
Brown. Inherited from my Dad.

Skin Color:
Fair. Some people say I'm too fair. Looks deathly. But I like it. =p

Status:
Singleton

Last 5 Digits of My Mobile:
4805

Birthday:
16 September 1986. *hint hint*

Have You Tried Smoking:
Sad to say, yes. The curious cat in me got me trying. But my friends gained from it. Cos I usually gave up the whole pack to them. Haha. They must have loved me alot then.

Drink Alcohol:
Yes. But gonna stop it. Or maybe just stick to cocktails.

Been Hurt Emotionally:
Of course. The world is so cruel. LOL.

Kept a Secret From Anyone:
Everybody has a secret.

Been on Stage:
Yes



~ Favourites ~


Color:
Currently RED

Food:
Almond

Number:
5

Cartoon:
Spongebob Squarepants!

Song:
Currently The Scientist by Coldplay

Movie:
Currently Pirates of the Caribbean



~ Right Now ~


Wearing:
my Secondary Schools's Girl Guides shirt in orange color, my brother's Secondary School PE shorts in dark blue.

Hairstyle:
All tied up in high ponytail with a baby blue scrunchy and black headband.

Looking at:
Laptop screen

Thinking of:
What to write.

Listening to:
the telly blaring away.



~ Do You Believe In ~


Love:
Yes

Faith:
Definitely

Yourself:
Absolutely

Angels:
Yup. I have lots of them as friends.

Ghosts:
Why not?



~ In the Last 24 Hours ~


Wore Jeans:
Nope

Wore Black Pants:
Nope

Cleaned your Room:
Yes

Cried:
No

Met Someone New:
No. Not in the last 24 hours.

Last Person Whom I Talked to on the Phone:
Nobody. Not in the last 24 hours.



~ Love Life ~


Do You Believe in Love:
Scroll up please.

Have a Secret Admirer:
Not that I know of.

Do You Wanna Get Married:
Surprisingly, yes. But not now. Maybe between age 24-26.


How Old You Wanna Be When You Have Kids:
Between age 26-28.

How Many Kids Do You Want:
2. A boy and a girl.

Would You Have Kids Before Marriage:
NO! I've seen too many cases of that. NO!

Do You Have a Crush:
Nope

What Do You Want Most in a Relationship:
Trust



~ Random ~


Your Favourite Local Footballer:
I don't even know any except for Fandi.

3 People You Run to When You Have Problems:
My brother, CS & Farhana.

3 Things You Do When You Are Stressed:
Think alot, cry, binge.

3 Prominent Qualities of Myself:
Crazy, Nice, Generous.

What Would You Do If You Have 1 Million Dollars:
Buy a convertible, landed property, donate to orphanage & AIDS foundation, keep the rest in the bank. I'm very selfish. Haha.

Are You a Jealous or Insecure Freak:
Jealous. Never insecure cos I know I'm good enough.

Favourite Secondary School Teacher:
Chan Choy Wei. She's the one who changed my life.

People You Like to See Doing This Thing:
Nobody. Not gonna let them do this troublesome and time consuming nonsense! LOL!





Saturday, July 15, 2006
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I fear . . .



Falling in Love.


I used to be looking forward to it. But now I'm starting to fear it.
I fear the unknown, the excitement, the happiness, the sweetness, the anger, the fights, the quarrels, the anticipation, the jealousy, basically everything!

Could it be that because I've been living the life of singleton for so long that I don't wanna give it up?

Perhaps because I don't see the need to change the winning team? Things are fine just the way it is so why change?

Gosh! I really don't know!

But whatever it is, Love, please elude me for as long as you can until I sort myself out.

Pretty please!




Friday, July 14, 2006
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Changes


Recently I've been hearing this from a lot of people.

"You've changed"

Come to think of it, I've indeed changed. And I can feel the changes.
Somehow, I feel much more at ease and peaceful deep down.
I never knew a person could feel that they've changed.
Wow.





What they say:

- More open up
I don't close up tight like a shell anymore. Used to hide all my feelings and thoughts but now, I know when to share and to let out. And I gotta thank all my friends who are there for me.

- Happier
Indeed I'm happier now. Laughing alot now, giggling more, prancing around the house as if I've just received my Christmas present. Don't ask me why. I just do.

- Encouraging
I've been encouraging people more. Cos I know it's essential. But that doesn't means I lie. I tell them what I see and think, and what I believe in. Alot of my friends think very lowly of themselves but that's not the truth. They're more than they think and I must let them know. Just like how some of them make me realise some of the qualitlies I never knew I have.
You guys are so wonderful. Really.

- Humble
The only time when I'm not being humble is when I'm trying to crack someone up. I say things like "I'm the best", "I'm the prettiest" and such cos I wanna make you laugh. Not because I mean it. Seriously.





What I realised:

- More homey
Staying at home TOO much nowadays. And I'm bonding closer and closer to my Dad, Mom and my irritating brothers. Now I'm showing my care and concern more openly to them, talking to them more, and loving them more. They make me feel like a little girl. Totally being loved and pampered. Hee!

- Nicer
Being more caring and nicer to lots of people. Not so much of a bitch like I am in the past. I've no idea why. By right I'm pure evilness!

- Better tempered
I don't scream non-stop now. I just scream once and that's it. All my anger gone. And again, I've no idea why.

- More real
I used to be quite a fake ass person, towards people I don't like. But now my feelings for everyone are real and 100% genuine. And I don't hate anyone now. Kind of weird.

- Less serious
Not taking things too seriously now and not thinking too much now. Not good for me and so decided to stop it. Perhaps this is why I'm happier now. And I know when to let go now.

- More contented
I'm lucky shit to have everything I have. So why should I complain? I have the greatest parents, most irritating but loving brothers, most caring & helpful relatives, funniest and most interesting friends, best life mentors who are always there for me, a roof over my head, too much clothes & shoes, education, food, laptop & wireless broadband connection, and loads loads more!





And so I've changed. Changed for the better. I'm becoming a different person but I'm embracing it. And I'll still be changing. Hopefully changing for the better. Cos honestly, I still have lots of bad bones in me. Opps.

Gosh. I'm feeling so happy and blissful now.
I must be outta my mind!






Wednesday, July 12, 2006
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I must be crazy.


I'm starting to miss going to school.

No, your eyes are not playing tricks on ya. I indeed wrote that I'm missing school.



I miss going to classes, I miss attending tutorials, I miss listening to lectures, I miss scribbling notes, I miss trying to crack my head completing tutorials, I miss all the mugging, I miss all the assignments & projects, I miss all the deadlines, I miss all the stress, I miss all the staying up late, I miss all the not sleeping at all and going to school with bad temper, I miss all the Q-ing up at the printing shop.
Heck. I even miss the exam!


Damn.

I want to go to school!

Farhana darling, I'm starting to envy you.
Maybe I really should drop in to your lectures. Seriously considering that.

I even miss waking up early and rushing for 8am classes!

But it's such a pity. I'm only going to school next year.

Hello?!

Can 2007 come to me faster? Pretty please?

Boo hoo hoo.




Tuesday, July 11, 2006
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I'm ok with it.


By being rude to me and critisizing me, is that your only way of stopping yourself from being nice to me?

If that's the case, by all means go ahead and continue doing it. If it makes you feel any better.

You said it's weird that I'm being nice to you and that I should stop it.
Ok. I will.

You are being nice and the next moment all withdrawn.
Ok. Fine with me.

You start critisizing me, hurting my feeling in the process.
Ok. Go ahead.

But don't you leave me all alone for a long time and then comes back being all nice and sweet and then starts being an ass.
That's not a very gentleman thing.

I'm sorry that I can only see you as a friend.

Obligation and love is 2 different matters.

Don't you get it?

I've tried seeing you as a lover. I did.

But my affection for you is only as much as that of a friend.

So can you please stop behaving like that and be your normal self again?

I miss the old you. I really do.




Monday, July 10, 2006
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Say it or Leave it.


I've said this before, and I'm saying it for the last time.

Don't try to hint me cos I ain gonna take it.

If you've got something to say, or that you wanna let me know, say it.

Tell me.

Cos I don't like guessing games and I'm not gonna play any part in it.

And so there you go.

Take it or leave it.



Sunday, July 09, 2006
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Horrible night !


Feeling really terrible now.

All I wanna do now is to behave like a spoilt brat and throw my tantrum like there's no tomorrow!

But alas, I can't. Gotta be considerate. Cos my Daddy is sleeping.

AAAAHHHHH!

My day was actually still really wonderful but everything started to go downhill and straight to hell a few hours ago.

Met up with CS to get all my computer stuff. Router, bluetooth and cable.

Beautiful and happy things were around me.

Like all the beautiful dresses I saw at Topshop and Dorothy Perkins. Planning to get them next week.




And went for a manicure at Dashing Diva. Feeling so happy to finally give myself a treat. And at last being able to get rid of my long and bare and ugly looking plain nails.








Even bought myself a Lancome mascara.




But none of the above is able to make me happy now.

I was on the phone just now with a tech support for 78 minutes!

Like oh-my-goodness-78-minutes!

Damn. And I'm not even sure if I'm being connected to the Singapore number I dialled, or that they transferred me to the one in US! If it's US, then I can really kill myself when the telephone bill comes in. Cos freaking 78 minutes! And it ain very assuring when the tech support I'm talking to has this weird accent. Not very Singaporish I must say.

Anyway, it feels really horrible and helpless when you're trying to solve something which you have absolute zero knowledge in and the only help you can get is from a tech support over the phone.

Couldn't configure the setup for my wireless network and I gotta deal with both my desktop computer and laptop. Troublesome, confusing, and totally helpless.

And the worst thing is that the tech support guy has to be mostly on the wait while I try to do whatever he told me to. It's so moronic.

Feeling so guilty that he had to waste 78 minutes on me with half the time listening to the air.

Argh.

Well whatever it is, it's over. My network is finally set up. And thank goodness that Leo the tech support is really helpful, polite and patient. Gosh!

And to make things worst, my stupid ass of a brother started complaining when he saw the mess I'm in and the fact that I'm "hogging" his precious lousy desktop computer. Like I have a choice.

And the worst thing he said was:

"And there you were talking to that guy."

EXPLOSION!

I was talking to the tech support you no brainer!

I have no one to talk to now cos I'm sure my beloved is feeling too upset over the absence of her love, so I'm not gonna disturb her.

And precious Adrian lost his voice and is feeling unwell.
(hey, get well soon alrighty! if you need loads of sugar to get well, you know who to go to. haha!)

Now I wanna cry...

No one to console me.

Anyway, thank you so much for spending your whole day helping me out. Being an ass again cos I was too frustrated.



And thanks to Leo the tech support, whoever you are.





Saturday, July 08, 2006
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My favorite pair of pumps at the moment.


Wearing them to work . . .


Wearing them out . . .





Friday, July 07, 2006
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Saying Goodbye.


Met up with beloved Kerlyn, James & CS yesterday. James's reporting for NS today. So met up for a "final" gathering.

Had dinner at this newly opened Sakura (serves international buffet) located IN Clementi Woods. It is IN the park itself. Weird. Had a hard time searching for it.


Dinner was great. Lots of laughter, lots of secrets. Haha.

Headed to Kbox at Jurong East after that and had such a fantabulous (combination of fantastic & fabulous. i think i should get it copyrighted. haha.) time. A pity CS had to leave early to get his work done.



I'm so gonna miss James' singing! He's totally a singer! Especially when it comes to Wong Lee Hom and David Tao's songs!




CS's such a poor thing. All 4 of his best buds went into NS except for him. No more basketball sessions and weekly meeting up.



And I guess my beloved is gonna be sad too. No more regular meet ups with James. She's already fretting over how his life will be in NS. Keep wondering if it's gonna be tough for him and such. Aww... So sweet!



Oh well my dears, NS is just a phrase. It'll be over. And at least we still have each other!

And pretty please the 2 of ya. Shake hands and make up already!

Especially CS. Be a man and do the right thing. Apologise.



Wow. I'm missing them all already.





Thursday, July 06, 2006
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Departure Day


I remembered really clearly that I had to get up at 4.30am that day and that I only jumped into bed at 2am.

Tsk tsk. Feeling like shiat due to not being able to fall asleep at all.



Flight was at 8.10am and there we were at the airport at 6am!

Yes yes yes. I know we have to get there 2 hours before boarding. But isn't it way too early?


*Passports? Checked! Documents? Checked! Money? Checked!*


I was really bored from all the waiting and so . . .









And then when we finally boarded the plane . . .


Being the ultra kuku me, I had no idea where to pluck the earphone in and I was too shy to ask for help. It was only till the last 30 minutes of the flight that I figured it out and so ended up, I only managed to watch 10 minutes of Ultraviolet. Dumb.











Don't be deceived by the look of it all. The egg was hard and the salmon was terrible. The mango pudding was really nice though. Yum yum. I love dessert!





Approaching Taiwan . . .





The flight took 4 hours and 25 minutes. And when the plane landed, I got real high! Loved that rushy feeling of landing!


Anyway, we joined a 6 days tour with Chan Brothers before heading to Kao-Hsiung on our own.







Boarding the bus . . .







Taiwan's cabs are yellow while our's are blue, yellow, white, green and silver. Colorful!


And then off we go to our 1st destination!






All about
: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

: xoxo :


Hugs & Kisses
: xoxo :




Previous
: blabbers :


Gallery of
: memoirs :


Ending
: credits :

Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love


Edited by:

Yours Truly... Elise Tan



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