:: eLise is me ::: so . . .

Sunday, January 07, 2007

La vie est Belle <>

so . . .

I realised that now when I write about stuff, I think twice.
I've actually written stuff, and published them, only to take them down and delete them.
And as for really personal thoughts, I've just given up on writing them here altogether.

I used to be able to write about everything.
My thoughts, how I feel, my anger, what makes my day, my crazy antics, everything.

I once got into a huge quarrel with my closest girlfriend, because I wrote of my displeasure towards her attitude.
I know that she reads my blog, but I wrote it anyway.

I used to put my blog address on MSN, and so whoever is on my list, has the chance of dropping by and taking a look.

And that includes my ex-boyfriend, whom I've written about SO many times.
But who cares?
I still write what I want.

But now, there are times when I wanna write about a certain someone, or anyone, but I'll think twice, because I know they read my blog.

And I no longer display my angst or anger here.
Cos you never know who's gonna stumble across your blog one fine day.

And so now, I'm contemplating the idea of changing to a host with password feature.
So that I can write about my deepest, darkest secrets, and then lock them up!
At least I'll feel so much better, having an outlet to release all those pent-up emotions and thoughts in me.

But I hate the idea of being so secretive.

Well granted, everybody's gotta have some skeletons in their closets.
But those true blue skeletons of mine, of course, will never ever get the chance to see the daylight.

So you guys have no hope of ever knowing my most obscure secrets.
Unless you can mind read. Then that's another story.

So should I be true to myself, and continue writing here?

Being totally honest, and bearing with the consequences (whatever that might be).

Or should I change to a host with password feature, to satisfy that much needed release of mine?

Then I'll no longer be as open and honest, as I vow to be.

Or better yet, create a new blog and remain anonymous?

That sounds really exciting, cos I can totally write whatever I want, and be as ridiculous and crude, as I like.

Geez.
What should I do?

I know.
Go all the way back to the basic.
Writing in a true blue diary!
Old school, paper & pen system.

Seriously, I have to detach myself from here for a considerable period.
I'm getting too involved in blogging.
Like everyday!

Bad habit.

Oh. Speaking of which, I have this bad habit of frowning, without even realising it.
My brother is forever laughing at me regarding that.

A very typical conversation would go like this:

"Eh. Why are you frowning when watching such a sappy show?"

"No I'm not."

"Yes you are."

A few minutes later...

"There! You're frowning again. I told you so."

"....."

And I just caught myself, a total of 5 times, frowning without knowing it, in a span of 30 minutes.

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

: xoxo :

Hugs & Kisses

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: blabbers :

Gallery of

: memoirs :

Ending

: credits :

Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love

Edited by:

Yours Truly... Elise Tan