:: eLise is me ::: the sweetest thing

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

La vie est Belle <>

the sweetest thing

I was suddenly reminded of that day when I met up with him, and told him that I'm leaving.

I was a total mess that afternoon. Emotionally.

I sat there quietly while he had his lunch, and he took into his responsibility to get me whatever I needed.

I was on the verge of crying, and yet trying so hard to be my usual cheerful self.
Saying dumb things, to so desperately, cover up the fact that my heart is breaking.

All he did was smile at me, and said nothing.
Giving me the space to adjust my emotions, giving me the time to sort out my thoughts.

He had that awful expression on his face, which I've never seen before.
And I knew how he was feeling too.
Torn up by the sudden news.

He sipped his drink, while I ate my cake.
Toying with it, as I hardly had any appetite.
I just ordered the cake as a distraction.

Waiting, waiting, waiting.
Just plainly keeping me company, till I'm ready to talk.

Waiting, waiting, waiting.

Are you still doing the waiting, my dear?

I'm sorry I had to leave.
I'm sorry I'm one of your worries.
I'm sorry I've never reciprocated your feelings.

But I do love you so, in a different way.

Your absence these couple of days, made me realised that I miss you.

Thank you for telling me that I'm one of those people whom you really care about now.

Thank you for spending those nights in the chilly park talking to me.
Reminiscing the younger days, and laughing at ourselves.
Talking about the future, our dreams, and goals.

Thank you for always teasing and bullying me.

Thank you for that wonderful lunch.

Thank you for just being there that day, and saying nothing.

I wish I could be your aspiration or hope, through this tough period of your life.

But I am never confident if I'll ever feel the way you do.

My buddy told me to just let you continue with the waiting, but I can never bear to do so.

A selfish part of me wanted you all to myself.
But I know better, than to do that.

So even though it's gonna break my heart, I'm finally gonna be saying this to you.

Don't do the waiting anymore.
Many things can happen in a year.
Find a fabulous girl who cares for you, and can take care of you.

Don't worry so much about me anymore.
I have to learn to grow up.
Don't pamper me anymore.

Now that the hard part is over, I hope you come back soon.
And hopefully you had so much fun on your trip.

*hugs*

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

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Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love

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Yours Truly... Elise Tan