:: eLise is me ::: where is she ?

Saturday, December 30, 2006

La vie est Belle <>

where is she ?

Even though my life was kind of screwed up a couple of months ago, I was still happy.
Because I know who I am.

It took me a long time to get to that point.
To rediscover myself, to establish myself, and to finally be myself.
I couldn't care less about what people wanna think of me, cos it's MY life.

I do what I wanna do, and I say what I wanna say.

But it seems like now that I've got my life settled, I've lost myself.
I'm confused.

The girl who knows what she wants.

The girl who isn't all work and no game.

The girl who cares immensely for others, yet still remember to put herself first.

The girl who is all sugar & spice & everything nice, but you know better than to mess with her.

SHE IS GONE ! ! !

I've been feeling so blue these few days because of this.
Tsk tsk.

Ever since coming over, I've been all sugar & spice & everything nice. I'm becoming so sweet that I'm getting diabetes soon.
Yuck !

And that bitch fit in me has yet to see the daylight. I need to start throwing my tempers around, and act like a spoilt brat. Or I'll go crazy real soon.
I need to sulk, and pout like there's no tomorrow !

Those regular doses of gossips, bitchy comments, evil eye, and bossiness in my life has vanished. Or maybe I just forgot to pack them along with me.
GAH !

Adrian said to me a couple of times before, that coming over, I can be who I want to be.
But the point is, I wanna be who I am before. I don't want to change.

Perhaps I have to find out what sparked the change.

Anyway, was chatting with Farhana yesterday, and she mentioned about wanting to blog about 2006.
I told her I have no idea what to write. And indeed, I'm not planning to write anything about it.

To put it real short and sweet, 2006 has been a tremendous year for me, because 3 very huge events happened.
And these events are so significant that they changed my outlook & direction in life.

And this time round, I'm not gonna be coming up with a huge chunk of "resolutions".
You never did get around to fulfilling them anyway.
It probably looks nice. That's all.

My only wish for the new year, is to never forget the real reason why I left home & the ones I love.

And to find myself again, soon.

: xoxo :

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

: xoxo :

Hugs & Kisses

: xoxo :

: blabbers :

Gallery of

: memoirs :

Ending

: credits :

Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love

Edited by:

Yours Truly... Elise Tan