:: eLise is me ::: This, I believe.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

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This, I believe.

I don't practice any religion, even though my family is Buddhist.

My Dad is part of a Buddhist group, and rather devote to it. Often going for the seminars, events, and dinners.

He brought me and my brothers to one of the session once. It didn't leave any bad impression on me, and neither did it leave any deep impact. I just felt neutral about the whole thing.

My Dad once asked me out of the blue, whether I wanna be a Christian. He pulled out a card and told me "If you wanna be one, now is your chance. Do it before I change my mind."
But of course, I declined.

I've attended Church sessions twice.
The first time, I was led into it by people standing outside my school, persuading people to take a look.
The second time, my best friend asked me relentlessly and I just gave in to her.

I've told her never to invite me to Church sessions ever again, because I felt umcomfortable about it. I do not have anything against it. I think I'm just not ready for it yet, or that it's just not meant to be.

She respected my decision, even though she'll push her luck by asking me once in a blue moon. (yes, being my best friend, you get to push your luck with me, and still remain in one piece. haha.)

I've actually contemplated practicing Wicca, a few years back. I believe in Nature, the elements, cosmic, fate, destiny etc. Something substantial; I can see it, and I can feel it. I know it is there for sure.
But of course, somehow, I just gave up that notion.

I choose not to practice any religion, because I do not like the idea of turning to a higher power everytime I get into trouble, or whenever I'm going through a rough patch. I especially dislike it when people over rely on the higher power, asking for help and leaving everything to it. Not doing anything to solve their problems.

I prefer to put myself through all the shit, to push myself, and to test my limits. And up till now, I've outdone myself a lot of times. And that makes me marvel at the strength of human beings. The mind is a truly fasinating thing, and the sexiest ever.

I don't deny that there are times when I wish I could have someone to pray to, or someone to seek help from. Someone whom I can ask for forgiveness, or to ask for divine intervention. No doubt, I'm not getting regular doses of spiritual tuning, but I've found something else to believe in.

I believe in Guardian Angels. I believe that everyone has one. And I don't care where angels came from.
The angels I believe in, are not from Kingdom Come or Hell. They are by themselves. Like a congregation or something.

Yesterday, I went jogging around the neighbourhood, and somehow I got lost. It was getting dark, and I ran pass a couple of shabby streets with crazy dogs barking at me.

I was on the verge of bursting into tears, but I kept telling myself "Don't you dare cry. If you do, you're a coward. You're not supposed to cry. Keep calm and follow your instinct. Use your mind and reason. DO NOT cry."

There was a moment when I ran pass the same place twice, and that is seriously not doing my mind any good. And I don't have my cell with me. I thought I was lost for good.
Well, people tend to think the worst under such circumstances.

But of course, I finally found my way back. Safe and sound.
For that, I thank my Guardian Angel.

I've got a few close encounters with accidents, but up till now, my ass is still blessed. And if I have to relate all these "luck" to something mystical, Guardian Angel it will be.

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

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