:: eLise is me ::: Identity Crisis

Friday, September 01, 2006

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Identity Crisis

I don't know who I am anymore.
I don't know what I want anymore.

I'm feeling all messed up, neurotic, negative, moody etc.
I actually feel like a LOSER!

It boils down to the fact that I'm turning 20 soon.
Not that it's any big deal but it's just me crossing over to another phrase in life.

And I dislike it!

I'm starting to question my existence, my purpose, my worth, my being, my EVERYTHING!

I don't know if I should continue being who I am or should I be a whole new person.
I've been too good too long and it's wearing me out.
It seems like I should go out, get down and dirty, drink and party, kick people's ass.
But that's not what I want. Yet its calling out to me!

And it doesn't help that I'm in the midst of making a life changing decision.
Something very important to me.
Something I treasure and value.

And it sure doesn't help having people breathing down my neck and imposing their "what-you-should-be-doing-right-now" lectures.

Respect me alright?!
Give my my damn space!

I can't breathe and I'm suffocating.
I'm being tied tight around my neck by leashes of people who think they own a piece of me.

You don't lord me and you certainly don't control me.
I have freewill god damnit!

But this is all temporary and I know it.
I will emerge whole and sorted out.
I will be my stable self again.

I WILL!

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

: xoxo :

Hugs & Kisses

: xoxo :

: blabbers :

Gallery of

: memoirs :

Ending

: credits :

Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love

Edited by:

Yours Truly... Elise Tan