:: eLise is me ::: Too long ago.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

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Too long ago.

I suddenly realised that I haven't been writing intelligent entries for a long long time.

Yes yes yes.

I've been having quite abit of "realization" recently.

Just like the other night when I was lying in bed, suddenly this voice surfaced.

"Are you sure you wanna give that up?"

And then I started getting all fickle-minded, which is a state I'm constantly in recently. And I've no idea why is that so. My whole being has turned into a rather useless piece of dry land whereby nothing productive and useful is being created outta it.

Well back to the main point.

All my entries have been about my own emotional outbursts. Which apparently, and obviously, are very frequent nowadays.

It's either my female thingy is approaching, or that the big D is coming back.

Which in this case, I guess both.

Firstly, I've been really cry-baby-ish recently.
Evidence: I cried when my gramp don't allow me to watch my favourite CSI.

Yes yes yes.
Sounds stupid I know.

Secondly, I've been easily pissed recently.
Evidence: When I don't see my i've-been-waiting-for-2-weeks-n-god-damn-you-you-haven't-arrive mail among all the mails, I start kicking a fuss and sulk all day.

It doesn't really sounds ridiculous cos it's my paycheck you're talking about here! Late for 2 weeks?! Ok. that's another story. Talk about it some other time.

Thirdly, I've been really loony recently.
Evidence: I pranced around the house like a little girl and goes "la-la-la" in a sing-song voice.

Fourthly, my emotions changes like the flipping of one page to another.
Evidence: I can be all happy talking to my bro and the next instant, I'm freaking piss with him.

And so the above are the typical female behavior of mine when the moon and the tide starts acting weird. Or is it just me?

Anyway . . .

Fifthly, I've been getting into sudden and for-no-good-reason emotional outburst.
Evidence: Just the other day, I started crying for no apparent reason while reading a book. It's not a romance or tragic novel mind you. It's a health book.

Sixthly, I've been getting negative thoughts.
Evidence: Just the other day when I started crying for no apparent reason while reading a book, my mind suddenly says this to me
"you are a good for nothing and nobody likes you. stupid fool."

So much for loving thyself.

And so the above is what I went through during the big D and now I'm experiencing it all again.

STOP!

What a big digress I'm making here.

Wasn't I talking about the lack of intelligent entries?

Oh yes I was.

Well anyway, regarding the entries for the Taiwan trip, it's been way way way delayed cos there's still some photos which I haven't retrieve from my Aunt's camera. Will be doing it soon I promise.

Not that it's worth more than gold but just make do with it.

Oh shiat! I'm supposed to be going out.

Bye!

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

: xoxo :

Hugs & Kisses

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: blabbers :

Gallery of

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Ending

: credits :

Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love

Edited by:

Yours Truly... Elise Tan