:: eLise is me ::: I'm more than that.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

La vie est Belle <>

I'm more than that.

All along, I've been trying to get your recognition. I once had it but with more and more people entering your life, I no longer hold that same position. I felt it, and I trust what I feel.

And so comes the long and tedious journey of trying to prove myself to you. To prove that I'm the one and that I'm the best. But apparently it's not working.

All the time I sacrificed to be with you, listen to you, laugh with you, cry with you, be a fool just to make you smile, joke about myself so that you'll stop crying.

You always say that it is all in the heart. And I totally agree.

But for that, I'm not even feeling it.

And it is only just moments ago that I realised this.

I'm more than that.

Hey. I'm more than that.

All along I have been who I am without your recognition, and even if I do, I doubt that played any big part in my journey to being who I am.

And so I finally decided to move on with it.

I may not have your recognition, but I have others' recognition. I have their love for me. Their care and concern for me.

And that would means that it's no biggie that I'm giving up on giving you all my best would it?

Yeah. I think so too.

I honestly loved you with all my heart and held you in a high position for all these years. But it is real tiring to be doing all that and feeling like a fool. Cos for one, I'm no fool and thus I'm not gonna short-change myself and feel pathetic just bcos I did not feel any recognition from you.

I'll still be in your life and will be there for you when you need me. Or more like when you "want" me.
The only difference is that I'm not gonna love you as much and you'll no longer hold such a high position in my heart. Cos I can't short-change the others as well. They deserve that position more than you do.

I've been blind in the past my dears. But rest assure, I'm all clear now.

I can see who are the ones, and I can feel it.

And most importantly, I'm more than that and I definitely deserve more than what you've been giving me.

I'm not gonna allow anyone to treat me like dirt ever again.

Never.

P.S. This is to my sistas, best pal, CS, big baby, Mich, and everyone else.
~ I LOVE ALL OF YOU ~

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: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

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