:: eLise is me ::: Brain Dead.

Monday, January 02, 2006

La vie est Belle <>

Brain Dead.

Boo hoo . . .

I'm now taking a break from my report.

Being writing report from afternoon (like around 3pm) till now.

Boo hoo . . .

Somebody save me ~ (reminded of Smallville's soundtrack)

Anyway, I'm taking a break now cos my brain's been taken off by the traffic police. (attempting to be humourous here. so please laugh.)

Hmm.. Forgotten the word for it. Brain block? Something equivalent to a writer's block.

Freaking buns and macaroni.

I'm been spending so many days writing reports.

Spent my New Year Eve writing one (still remember I was counting down using my computer's clock), spent my 1st New Year day writing one.

Oh yea, just now Wayne was chatting with me online and he tried to comfort me by saying that it's a rather special way of celebrating my New Year so I actually shouldn't be sad.

Blah blah blah.

What a boring entry right.

Ok ok. You can go to bed now. Hush hush.

Oh man. I'm having a serious thought-block now. Can't organize my thoughts properly and I'm actually kindda stuck. Where's all my analysis when I need them? Come to mama!

Who in the world can manage to come up with a 15 pages report? You tell me who! Then I'll go pay that fellow to write it for me.

Hmm.. Actually I'm VERY tempted to do that. I don't mind paying someone 50bucks to write a super long report for me. I'm so lazy. Boo hoo.

Oh well.. Shall write it slowly. Bah!

And to think I've been suffering from diarrhoea the whole day. What a torture.
*grumbles incessantly*
*grumbles grumbles*

Anyway, this is to you-know-who.

Yes, I received the message you sent me. And yes, I did not make any response. Cos all I wanted was an apology from you. And yes, you gave me one. And that kind of left me stoned. Cos I didn't expect it so soon. I thought you'll still be adamant. And you ask, why did things turn out the way it did?

Why was I so adamant about getting an apology from you? Cos I felt that both of us were in the wrong and that I've admitted my mistakes. But you didn't. And instead you reacted quite sarcastically. That kind of pissed me off. All the anger accumulated in me just blew out at one go.

It's not that I don't wanna tell you straight in your face about what and how I'm feeling. But given the circumstances and your weird temper recently, I was advised not to. At least not so soon. And that, I agreed. Though I was VERY tempted to look you up.

Anyway, I'm sure you received my "kind of formal" message. Hopefully you don't take that to heart. It's just that I still don't know how to react. But I'll talk things out with you after "whatever we're working on right now" is over. Cos I have this belief that since it's this "whatever we're working on right now" that started all the bad things, we should wait for it to end before talking about it. Yes, I'm a weird person. You know that.

And yes. I love you too. And you know that.

Hopefully you still do.

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

: xoxo :

Hugs & Kisses

: xoxo :

: blabbers :

Gallery of

: memoirs :

Ending

: credits :

Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love

Edited by:

Yours Truly... Elise Tan