• I've gone through one semester of TEP, aka "free-laboring" for the school
• I've had my Year 3 Semester 1
• I've gone through IPP, aka "cheap-laboring"
• I'm halfway through my Year 3 Semester 2

Friends wise:

• Met some new friends
• Made up with one and finally understood her situation
• Let go of all my grudges and we're now back together and even closer than ever
• Found out who is truly worth keeping and who is not

Family wise:

• Lost a relative
• Had a big quarrel with my Dad and Gramp
• Distanced myself from everyone
• Realised how much I'm actually being loved

Personal wise:

• Gone through a series of break-downs
• Gone through my worst personal hell
• Realised what I really want out of life
• Realised that I should not trust people easily

Overall, I conclude that 2005 has not been that great.

The 3 quarter of it was really great. Really great.

But not the last quarter.

It was bad to the extent that I nearly gave everything up. And I do mean everything.

But thanks to "Doc NWH" and a website. They saved me.

So right now, I'm determined to have a fresh new start. I'm sicked and tired of having to go through days after days of feeling burdened and having too many unsolved issues on hand.

And so, it's either I solved them once and for all before 31st December 2005 before 12 midnight, or that I'm leaving it behind and never gonna mention or touch the unsolved issues ever again. And this time, I mean it.

I realised that I've been an easy target for bullies cos I have been too soft-hearted. And for that, I'm never gonna be soft-hearted again. At least, not that easily.

I trust people too easily and tend to be honest with them. I hold no qualms when telling them things, but in the end, all i got in return is betrayal. Usually this kind of betrayal, you only expect it from your neutral friends. But no. It also applies to people whom you take as your best friends. So now I'm starting to wonder: "What exactly are friends for anyway?"

But it is only through this that I realise who is really worth keeping and who is not.

And for that, I'm gonna dump those junks away once and for all.

I'm gonna let go of all my grudges and hatred. I'm not bringing them in to 2006. Never.

I've set myself a deadline. And now I'm only left with 2 days. Saturday and Sunday.

So it's either solved it or dump it.

I'm allowing myself to feel really really sad and really really angry. So that I'll use up all the sadness and anger I have right now.

And yes. I've been feeling so much calmer and peaceful recently. With myself, and with other people.

Geez, I like this kind of feeling. So I'm gonna keep it.

And for those people who have lots of hatred and anger in them, I seriously and really do pity them. Do make peace with yourself and others. You'll really feel so much lighter and relaxed.

POOF!

Now, I'm really looking forward to 2006.

With open arms and heart, and a big big smile!

LOVE YOU ALL, MY DEAREST PEEPS! I'M GLAD AND GRATEFUL, AND REALLY TRULY APPRECIATE THAT I HAVE YOU PEEPS IN MY LIFE.