:: eLise is me ::: Colorgenics

Saturday, March 31, 2007

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Colorgenics

Came across this link to some psychology test thingy from Sharon's blog. Realised that it's rather true in describing her, and so I thought I'll give it a go.

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favourite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

That, is so freakingly true. I got a shock when I read "rock your boat", cos that's a phrase I've been using a lot these days.

And yes, I've been experiencing some problems lately. I've done everything I could and yet it is still stagnant. I'm now trying to give up on feeling frustrated over it, and to let it be. If it will pass, it will pass. I'm going to try my best to not give two cents worth of attention to it anymore. I'm sick and tired of feeling as if I'm gonna burst from the sheer frustration of not being able to change anything.

And with regards to the "going it alone" part, I am left speechless. I've adopted the mentality of doing everything myself. I will only ask for help if I've exhausted all my own available resources. Just the other time, I walked all the way from my former accommodation to the present one, carrying my full length mirror, at 8pm. I could have asked someone for help, but I damnly refused to. And yes, I can be so stupidly stubborn and head-strong at times.

I absolutely hate it when people try to dictate what I should or should not do or say. Go stuff yourself people! Do you think I really care what you think? Don't tell me what to do or how to behave. I belong to myself and I am nobody's bitch except my own. Get it?

And yes, I hate conflicts. I hate arguements. And that is why no matter how unjust I felt, I keep it to myself. You can be blasting at me with all your might, but I'll still be sitting there all quiet and expressionless. BECAUSE I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO QUARREL, & I DON'T SEE THE NEED TO! WHAT'S WITH ALL THE FIGHTING & SENSITIVITY?

It may hurt me a whole damn lot but I still won't tell you. I may be crying my heart out but it won't be in your presence.

If at this point, any one of you wanna tell me that I'm such a boring person, you can go fuck off. Cos I don't care. I embrace my "boring-ness", so sue me.

People, like me and love me as who I am. Accept everything about me. If you want to change me to fit into your own perfection, then I won't be authentic no more. What fun is there in that?

Embrace my silliness, my randomness, my moronity, my absolute nonsense. Embrace my sincerity, my nice-ness, my silent affection, my craziness.

Embrace and accept me. Not someone you want me to be. It's deal or no deal people. I won't mourn over your lost. And even if I do (only for people I care about), I'll get over it eventually.

Here's a shout-out to my peeps (being the emotional crap I am).

Thank you Farhana & Cheryl, for accepting all my weirdness and random flare-ups. Thanks for being your lovely selves, and for bringing such joy, laughters & sometimes frustrations into my life. No matter how far apart we may be right now due to our own individual commitments, we'll still be that bimbotic threesome (aka mean girls). Hee! And I'm absolutely missing you girls so much! *hugs*

Thank you Kerlyn, for being that supportive pillar in my life. Thanks for just being there, with your silent concern and comfort. You can so totally read my mind (which can be frustrating at times), but you know I love you to bits. May we have many many more of 6-years in the coming. And you can forget about running away from the responsibility of being my bridesmaid! Muahaha! *hugs*

Thank you Jessica, for being that crazy and cute girlfriend you are. We've been through so much ups & downs in this friendship, but we still always end up being there for each other. We may be far apart, but you know I'm here for you. Thanks for being my crazy bitch (in the most affectionate way), and for being that honest friend you have always been! *hugs*

Thank you CS, for being the most wonderful guy friend ever. Thanks for being my "personal IT support", and for enduring all my nonsense. You never hesitate to help, and often go the extra miles. Whatever am I to do without you? Thanks for being so fabulous and wonderful. You know I love you. Hee. And please be more careful when you play sports. *hugs*

Thank you Adrian, for letting me win over your xbox. Thanks for being there even though you have your own stuff to deal with, and thanks for caring. We may be busy with trying to achieve our goals right now, but it is comforting to know that there is someone there to provide the occasional reassurances when the going gets tough. And of course, to also share all those random happiness, opinions and impromptu inspirations. *hugs*

Thank you Jerome, for always being there, to listen to my seemingly endless grumbles, and random weird thoughts. Thanks for enduring my "evilness" and craziness. Yes I know I'm really nutty, and yet you were kind enough to pretend to be nutty too. Hee. You're a billion dollars to me! Don't be so caught up in your work that you forget to eat or sleep. And please, you're NOT a bionic man, no matter how delusional you may be. Wahaha! *hugs*

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