:: eLise is me ::: I love him. I really do.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

La vie est Belle <>

I love him. I really do.

He is willing to give.

So why am I not willing to take?

This is something which not everyone has the luck to come across, or the opportunity to have. I cannot say I'm born with it. But at least, I have the luck to cross path with it.

I know there is a chance that I might regret in future if I choose to give it up but then again, there might not be.

I am torn up inside. Slowly killing myself with all the worries and indecisiveness. All those options I have.

Why can't I be left with no choice, no options, no grounds to choose from?

That will be so much easier for me.

I love him so much and that is why I can't bear to give it up. I will never get pass myself for letting him down this way.

But what about myself? Am I really so tough as to be so selfish?

Why is it that sometimes, the love for someone can be so tiring and such a tie down.

Sometimes, I do wish that I'm a heartless bitch.

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

: xoxo :

Hugs & Kisses

: xoxo :

: blabbers :

Gallery of

: memoirs :

Ending

: credits :

Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love

Edited by:

Yours Truly... Elise Tan