As I was preparing myself for the visiting today, this issue suddenly came across my mind.




If I have a boyfriend now and that I'm to marry him in 4 years time, wouldn't I be missing out on other guys?

I mean...

Imagine the number of other guys I'll meet in future when I go to university and when I start working. Not to mention those whom I will meet through other friends and socialising. That's a fair amount of guys. And among this fair bit, there is definitely gonna be guys who I might be interested in. What if my dream guy is one of them? Or that there's a better guy much more suitable for me?

Hmm...

So does that means that I shouldn't get a boyfriend now?

And by the way, right now when I'm considering boyfriend material, I'm looking for those long term kind. Anyway, back to the issue.

I told my friends that I'm back on track now and ready for a new relationship. I've spent the past 2 years hiding in the dark and nursing my broken heart. Which my friends all label me as crazy, cos I took a freaking 2 years to get over it.

So anyway, I was telling this guy friend of mine that I'm now shopping for a boyfriend and then this "shopping cart" joke came up between us. Lol. You know who you are. Haha.

And he told me to consider the guys in my school, in which I told him that I see no one I fancy. Cos the guys in my school are totally not my type!

Here's my criteria:

• Optimistic - there used to be this damn pessimistic guy going after me for 2 years and I didn't accept him cos everytime I talked to him, he'll be telling me how bad his life is and how he always fall sick and stuff. Stop that. You're a guy ok?!
• Humourous - you people know that I talk alot of crap so that guy must be able to tolerate me and my nonsense. So if you have no humour cell in you, I guess you wouldn't be able to get my joke for like 85% of the time.
• Intelligent - sad to say but I'm totally defenseless when it comes to a guy with brain. Not those nerdy brain but those smart brain. And that doesn't include "Mr. Know It All". I hate that.
• Charming - there's no definite example to this but it's something like an aura? Well, as long as he makes me all nervous when I see him, then that will do.
• Tall - i'm kind of "traditional" in this aspect. I need a guy to be taller than me. And by the way, I'm 1.62m. A guy taller than me gives me a sense of security. By tall I mean more than 1.68m. Preferably 1.72 - 1.75m. Love it!
• Financially stable - and by this, I mean by himself. Not by his parents. I despise guys who think that they are all so great just because their folks are rich. No. I need someone who is capable. I'm dating you and not your parents.
• Lookable - don't have to be super handsome. Cos I can always extreme-makeover him! Haha.
• Stylish - the most basic is to have good color coordination. If you think that green & orange goes together, then you're not the one.

Alrighty.

Most probably by now some people are thinking that I have such high expectations, which some people already told me before, or that who do I think I am to have such expectations.

Well, I'll tell you who I am.

I strongly believe that I deserve to and that I am granted to set such expectations. Cos by no means am I a lady without expectations of myself. Obviously I'm not those kind of girls who yearn to be a tai-tai but does nothing to improve themselves to be worthy of such status. I despise these girls. So stop dreaming and wake up your idea please. Thank you.

Of course I hope to be a tai-tai. And that it why I am constantly improving myself. To prepare myself and to be worthy of such status. I want my boyfriend or husband to be proud of me when he brings me to formal dinners or social gatherings. I want him to be the envy of the other guys. And that is why I keep myself updated on the current style, learns proper etiquette, tries not to speak singlish, cuts down on cursings, learns pilates to maintain good postures and etc.

Home wise, I can cook, iron, do the laundry, sew and vacuum.

Academic wise, I plan to get a degree. If possible, I hope for a masters. I will not stop at just a diploma.

Work wise, I have goals. I am not gonna settle myself with just a measly post.

Personal wise, I prefer to depend on myself. As in not spending my guy's doughs on branded items. I rather get them myself. I'm an independent person.

So all in all, I see no reason why I don't deserve to have a fantastic guy. And if I can't get one, there's always myself. I'm capable of supporting myself. Except for the emotional void.

So now...

I guess my conclusion is to keep on looking, and to let nature takes its course. When the right guy comes along, then that will be it.

Hopefully I'm that lucky. Cos I have lots of love in me now.

Haha.