:: eLise is me ::

Coeur de la Matière

2008-03-03T04:11:00.004+08:00

It's been awhile.

I'm now writing at :

http://elistic.blogspot.com

Lots of love.

xoxo

Young Folks

2008-01-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

I have another writing space. Somewhere more private where I can keep my thoughts to myself. Need some space from this noisy world.

All the departures I have to deal with right now.
Only more to come.

Because this is the path I choose, I shall walk on in faith.

Maybe I'll let the world in when I'm ready.

But for now, a gentle goodbye.

Love, Elise.

xoxo

Sacred place

2008-01-04T17:54:00.000+08:00

I'm not as strong as I wish to be, but there's always a solution and way out for everything.

Just taking it one step at a time.

Need a break from the world.

It's too noisy.

My smile is just a pretense that everything's all right.

So please just play along with me.

Don't ask if I'm all right.

I believe I am.

And I will be.

Red

2008-01-02T02:29:00.000+08:00

It's been some time since we last messaged each other. I hope you are fine and enjoyed your holidays. I just got back from a road trip to Malaysia with my friends. Enjoyed it, but it's really quite tiring!

So have you been missing me lately? Happy new year and merry xmas! Though it's late, but I still remember you. How were your parties? Must be great right?

I've been thinking of you at times. If I say I miss u constantly, you wouldn't believe me at all. So I'll be more subtle.

Well let me know about your life for the past week. Take care!

love,
John.

I don't even know how I feel towards this. Except that it's weird.

I'm too consumed by something else to care about other issues now. The start to 2008 hasn't been exactly good.

I'm bleeding in places where I shouldn't be, and it's getting me worried sick. Especially with my mind shrouded with copious negative thoughts and worst case scenarios. What if it's internal bleeding as I suspected? Or perhaps just a tore tissue?

Coupled with the fact that I haven't been sleeping and eating well for the past couple of months, I'm way over my head now.

The worrier is back.

I'm scared.

And it's not helping at all that the results I got from googling my condition are not reassuring at all. I'm on the verge of tears now.

Please let this be my paranoia on caffeine and nothing else.

Stupid girl. You'll be fine.

And I miss Dexter like crazy. That stupid monkey of mine.

Thoughts of mine.

2007-12-31T03:08:00.000+08:00

Trying as hard as can be to stop myself from ripping open the strawberry Porky (all time favourite at the moment).

I am hungry !

Only had a yoghurt, burger and chai tea frappe for the whole day.

>p

And FYI, I'm not on a diet or any crap behaviour of that nature. Have just been working crazy hours that I'm just too tired to eat. Even fell asleep at my desk just now!

Hur hur hur.

Am such a workaholic that I even dreamt of working!

ROARRRRR ~

Can't wait to go back home and have a grand old relaxing time with my loves. And speaking of which, I busted over 300 bucks on Boxing day sales! Oh my freaking gosh. But I've got all the prezzies for my loves, which is a load off my mind. But then again, there's the thing with luggage excess.

Oh my gosh...

Anyway, I'm missing that silly monster.

Boooooooooooo!

Bollocks to the rules!

2007-12-30T17:59:00.000+08:00

Call me stupid, but I hold true to my work ethics.

As long as it's my responsibility, I'll complete it.

It doesn't always have to be about the money.

Cold hard cash?

I'll choose my self and conscience over it any time.

Call me stupid. I don't care.

And I really wanna say...

I'm sorry Pabs.

Blossom

2007-12-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

Rocking to The Beatles and embracing that flower child in me.

I'm all about colours and love right now.

Hippie chick being the element.

This is my Summer of Love!

Though I'm not in San Francisco, I'll still rock it my way in Aussie land ~

Beyond it all.

2007-12-27T01:09:00.001+08:00

"Is your friend there?"

"Yeah."

"Get your friend on the phone."

"No."

"Get your friend on the phone."

"No."

"Get your friend on the phone."

"No. She doesn't know. And don't you dare tell anyone!"

"All right. But are you sure you're all right? It's worrying."

"I'm fine. I just want to talk to someone back home."

"Just ignore them. You don't even know them. You don't have to give a damn."

"I know.. Thanks. I'll be fine. Talking to you is good enough."

"Are you sure? Tell me what happened when you're feeling better all right?"

"All right. I'll talk to you again then. Thanks."

In times of need, I can find no one except him.

I take comfort and misery in knowing that.

Comfort that I have someone like him, and misery that I only have him.

That is precisely why I pretend to be a superwoman.

Because there's no one to catch me when I fall.

Merry my foot.

2007-12-24T11:19:00.000+08:00

Yet another festive holiday in the foreign land.

You have no idea how badly I wish to go home.

Basking in the warmth, love, joy and laughter of my family and friends.

Once again, I crave some changes. Major ones. But can I handle it? Sometimes, I'm not as grounded as I seem to be. Or wish to be.

Another new year to come. Another unspoken milestone. Another empty canvas. Another brand new slate.

Do I have any wishes?

Perhaps for the world to be quiet more often.

Why do we fight? Why do we kill? Why do we hurt someone else?

Is one person's life more worthy of another?

Does one has more rights to inflict harm to another?

There's no such thing as an idealistic world, but can't we work a little harder to make things a little better?

That abusive customer from last evening makes me wonder about the psychology of a bully. Coupled with the programme on the Serbs in Kosovo last night and the approaching holiday, Elise is not a very festive person right now.

Everything seems a little gloomy and hopeless.

Damn that hippie chick in me.

Regardless, have a Merry Christmas everyone. And a fabulous new year to come.

With lots of love.

xoxo

=)

On second thought.

2007-12-17T11:09:00.000+08:00

I love The Sims because I get to control those beings.
The free-will function is always switched off.
I am in total control.
And I like that.

Therefore at this point in time, I'm not going to loosen my grip and lose control. It's gonna take more than that to disarm me. The defense and independence built up over the years are all I have to keep on trudging through the mud of life. Those times I've fallen and picked myself up. Those times I've lost faith and made it through on sheer determination.

I yearn for a superman to save me, but am I willing to strip off that superwoman armour I've donned on?

Not at this point.
I'm still not ready to be vulnerable.
Perhaps I'll never be ready.

I'm always in this defensive mode and although it wears me out, I'm conditioned to it. It's absence will be confusing and uncomfortable. Yet another comfort zone I've created. It took a lot to leap out from the prior one, and now it's gonna take as much as well.

I need more time.

"The problem is, are you able to let anyone in?"

She is right.

As much as I trust, I distrust.
The double-edged sword, my contradiction.

Total vulnerability of self has never occurred with anyone.
Maybe it never will.

Perhaps I'll never be ready.

My Profile.

2007-12-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

La vie est belle. Faites vos reves venir vrai !

My ultimate goal is to be a Dietician.

Currently NOT in Singapore.

If I don't reply your messages, it's either your messages are boring or you're a damn bad speller.

Snobbish?
I'm not.

I just don't give a fuck.

P.S. Don't bother asking for my MSN or giving me yours, because I don't add randoms to my list.

Snobbish? I guess u r just pretentious.. tts all.

Anyway by NOT being in SG doesn't give u e right to use e magic 4 here. u r just a snooty sweet potato. Oops. its not standard ENGLISH so i bet u can't understand.. hahah.
Spelling Queen.

Lastly but most importantly, before u become a dietician, maybe u would wana watch ur own diet first. Just a piece of kind advice.

Speaking in defense of yourself from someone like me who'll probably not respond to you because you can't get over the most conventional "Hi can we be friends?" messages? Do I ought to apologise for unintentionally ripping apart your wounded self esteem? I guess not. I've done nothing wrong, and you don't deserve any.

And there's absolutely no need in clarifying about whatever's written in my profile to you, someone who will never understand anything because they don't have morons messaging them all the time about wanting to meet up and leaving their cell phone numbers. How typical. I'll have to surrender to that sad fact don't I?

And so it's a sad fact as well that there are people out there who just prefer standard classic proper English to lingos, with no intention or what so ever to demean the linguistic culture of someone else's.

And obviously, if everyone shall heed your advice on whether or not they should watch their diet, I guess we'll all be anorexics. Typical twisted perception of yours, as dictated by the media on what is acceptable and what is not.

Just what is wrong with the world, with people like you who make unnecessary inferences on what others wrote, and in trying to dictate one's way of life? Do you think you're Hitler or Stalin? This is the 21st century dude. Not the bloody Soviet Union of the 1920s.

Ain't gonna stoop to your level and hand you any piece of "kind advice".

I guess I have to get used to this don't I?

And do you now know why I've changed to be a rude bitch to people?

It's only because they deserve it.

I really miss my loves who understand and know the real me, and my true intentions.

It hurts to fight alone.

Perhaps it's time.

2007-12-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

To let go and be taken care of for once.

It's been a long time coming.

Loosen my grip without losing myself.

I'll learn to be loved.

So what will it be?

2007-12-12T01:49:00.000+08:00

The soul mate, the stability or the flutters?

Gone with the Wind

2007-12-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

Lost all my pictures, music, assignments, files and documents due to a backup attempt gone wrong.

No more entries on Melbourne trip, Taiwan trip, 21st birthday bash, VicPark Christmas carnival and anything else.

No more pictures of my family, friends and myself.

No more of my favourite music.
Maroon 5, Snow Patrol, Pink, Christina Aguilera, John Mayer.

No more of my first ever media assignment done during my media stopover during TEP.

No more of those treasured conversations.

Mourning the lost of all those incredible memories.

All that's left is those that remain in my mind.

A brand new start.

Ouchie

2007-11-24T02:26:00.000+08:00

Was still wondering why my left eye lid hurts and have been feeling nothing on it for the past 2 days.

Touched it again just now and felt a gash on it.

I slashed my eye lid without realising it!

What the hell?!

Stupidity and beyond.

Damn it.

Anyway, have been sleeping loads for the past one week. Sort of a compensation for myself.

Excuses, excuses.
Tsk tsk.

=p

Will get down to business with my backlogged entries starting next week.

Be patient my darlings!

=D

Yet another.

2007-11-14T14:06:00.000+08:00

A friend said he spotted me earlier this year and now a stranger said he spotted me twice, in Singapore.

When all along I'm in Australia, having not gone back at all since I left in November '06.

So now I'm officially a common face.

And I don't like that.

I much rather be delusional and hold the notion that I'm unique. Not just in personality.

Pfft.

6 in the morning.

2007-11-12T05:11:00.000+08:00

Incessant noise of the fan in the background, with notes tossed all over the bed and table.

Morning light breaking, with the minutes ticking away.

6.15am.

Human biology paper just 3 hours away, with an internet tab labelled "ear".

Snoozed from 9pm to 1am, in fear of falling asleep in the wee hours of the morning.

Missed CSI: NY.

6 more hours before the sigh of relief.

4 more days before complete liberty.

2 more months before home sweet home.

Wondering about him.

Stupid porcupine head.

In the sweetest sense of course.

Silly grin on her face.

Time to go back to the "ear".

The real world.

Stupid warm weather.

Summer once again.

6.30am.

Obviously

2007-11-09T19:31:00.000+08:00

I'm going through a phase, being all emotional and a little nut in the mental department. Taken a liking to being all spaced out in the room and avoiding all human interaction as best as I can.

It is the same trigger again, but having survived it previously, I know I will pull through again. Just have to give myself a little more time and space.

There's so much anger in me and I have no where to displace them. Which results in me being a total rude ass bitch, lashing out at everyone who I perceive as being even slightly remotely deserving of such treatment.

I wish I could just push all the blame to you, but what good would that do for the situation? You say you'll let me be and support my decision, but at the same time unwittingly say you need me. That phrase is my kryptonite and has always been the one thing which I can never get over. It makes everything so much more complicated.

People has been telling me to look beyond that and do what my heart says is the right thing, but it is so darn hard to get over myself. How do I be that selfish and heartless, be blind and turn my back to you.

I can never do that.

Perhaps I'm concocting my own poison and submitting myself to this crazy internal torture. Perhaps I'm channeling my anger at you towards myself.

Whatever it is, I just have to get over it.

No matter how hard, because I'm a tough cookie.

I won't let you get to me. It's just temporary.

There might be a broken bisque doll inside, but she's a healer.

Lately . . .

2007-11-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

I've been ruining everything. That nonchalant complacence which shrouds, with no sense of urgency beholding, and no sense of regret overhanging any decisions.

Just a deep grounded sense of calmness. Perhaps with a tinge of nostalgia sneaking its way into the oasis once in a while.

The endless tossing and turning through consecutive nights, accompanied by some long forgotten memories.

If only it could be recalled.

That vivid dream of running through the hospital, frantically in search of the ward. The scene of looking at the injuries and conditions, the shattering of the heart. The forcefully held back tears, choking the entire being.

The intense replay of the first contact, the terror of losing something precious.

That crazy crazy dream which haunts the soul.
Replayed over and over and over.

A cold so deep it chills the bones.

Running, running.

Trying to hide, trying to escape.

That artificial oasis.

The diamond dew which greets the break of dawn.

Running, running.

Never perfect.

2007-10-31T22:27:00.000+08:00

Jess babe once told me that it's better to be loved than to love.
That a girl is born to be pampered and cared for by the man.

So who do you choose?
The one you love, or the one who loves you.

Can love really be nurtured as time passes?

Why are you so silly as to keep waiting when there's already someone else, and you don't even mind?

And why are you always there when I fall?

Of all the "what-ifs".
I still can't get over my own defense.

Walk away from me and find your own happiness.

Stop saying I'm "the one".

Head over heels

2007-10-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

With Gunther von Hagens.

Even though the way he speaks is really annoying, but his beautiful mind is such a huge turn on. Not to mention that he's an Anatomist. The work he does is so interesting and profound, and literally "to die for".

Oh my gosh.
I'm totally gushing over him.

I'm gonna apologise for saying this, but I wanna jump him!
Sorry for my language people.

I seriously can't help it.
The brain is the sexiest thing to me, wayyy above fantastic beach abs.

Not only is he an intelligent individual, but also a non-conformist!
The two greatest characteristics bound into one.

I think I'm gonna leave it here and go hyperventilate.

*lalalalalalalalalala*

Ça ne fait rien

2007-10-27T20:00:00.000+08:00

It's not about having physical possession of him, or being on his mind and in his thoughts, or having his time. It's not about pining for him, or feeling bitter because you can't have him.

It's about him holding a special place in your heart, and of those little things which doesn't have romance written all over it.

It's about how the thought of him gives you a warm tingling feeling inside, and the smile he puts on your face when he says hi.

It's about the sense of security arising from his reassurances, the empowerment when he says he believes in you, and that gounded feeling knowing he is there.

Sometimes life gets so crazy and the only thing keeping you sane is him.

Sometimes people pile on so much problems on you, and the only thing keeping the cookie from crumbling is him.

It is these insignificant moments which light up the gloomy days, wipe away the tears, motivate you to fight on, and make you want to be a better person.

So at the end of the day, it really doesn't matter whether we have the courage to cross that line, or of the impending regret from not doing anything about it.

Because the future cannot be told and the past cannot be undone.

Let's just be glad that it happened, that the special place in your heart is filled.

Even if it's just the mere thought of him.

Let's PARTY!

2007-10-26T02:49:00.000+08:00

Had graduation dinner last night and am officially an alumni of Canning College Class of 2007!

Woot!

Take that people!

But damn, the finals are coming up.

%*(#*^(&#(*^@(*)^

ANYWAY, had so much fun that I'm feeling downright sick in the stomach now.

I suppose all the laughing-so-hard-till-I-fall-to-the-ground and silly antics of mine are making me want to hurl now.

Too much fun is not necessarily always the best thing.

Oh my gosh.

Sick to the stomach.

Want to hurl.

*green face*

Excuse me while I go lie on the bed and hug my baby in an attempt to feel better.

Photos galore from the dinner, but mostly of myself!

Muahahaha.

Shut up.

Don't want to write anymore.

Heart's desire.

2007-10-24T23:39:00.001+08:00

Give me a chance.

That's all I ask for.

D'oh !

2007-10-23T02:15:00.000+08:00

Lips are infected.
Again.

Gonna swell into Angelina Jolie proportion.
Not sexy.

One of those days

2007-10-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

Maybe I don't want anymore, maybe I don't care anymore.

The starvation from familiarity is sapping all the energy out of me.

Maybe it's time to head back to my comfort zone.

It is almost a year and yet I still feel this way.

Some days, the absence of everyone and everything hurts so much that I huddle up in a bunch, crying alone in the corner.

There is so many things which I miss.

Especially the people.

The people who show their silly sides, the people who enjoys some crazy fun.

Those unpretentious and unconditional love from them.

Always there without any motive, always there because they care.

A place I call my home, with people I call my loves.

I just want to go home, because some times it hurts so much.

Growing up is tough and no doubt, I have grown so much.

But some days, I just want to be that little girl brimming with smiles over the kitty pen her Dad bought for her.

Some days, I just want to be that birthday girl so filled with love by a surprise candle on her piece of Golden Rush at NYDC.

Some days, I just want to be that big sister bloviating to her brother who pretends not to listen but actually is.

Some days, I just want to be that friend having dinner with her bestie at Crystal Jade.

Some days, I just want to be that blushing girl on a date with her crush.

Some days, I just want to be all that I used to be.

Today, is one of those days.

Pissed

2007-10-13T02:06:00.000+08:00

One person's irresponsibility can drag the ENTIRE team down.

Inefficiency and ineffectiveness cause blemished services to customers, leaving bad experiences.

Word of mouth is a very powerful tool.

Don't work if you have such LOUSY work ethics.

Casual work is still work. And you are PAID for it.

If you want a listening ear or even advice, be grateful that people take time out to be patient and hear you bloviate.

Don't snuff people's advices just because you've heard it before from others, or that it's not what you WANT to hear.

If you want someone to agree with you, talk to YOURSELF.

And DON'T infer.

Don't drone on INCESSANTLY on how people is responsible for your failure.

You are responsible for your own actions.

Don't try to VICTIMISE yourself by sending others on a guilt trip.

I admit that I lack a sensitivity chip once in a while. But if you can't handle straight truth from me, then piss off.

I'm not here to tell you sugar-coated words to stroke your bloody egos.

I rather knock some sense than string you like a kite.

Take it or leave it.

I'm NOT obliged to be your Aunt Agony or ego masturbator.

Lily Allen - Littlest Things

2007-10-11T18:12:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your missus
All the play fighting, all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right, but it seems unfair
That things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinking tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could tell that I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There's no one in the world who could replace you

[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Physics under the Sun

2007-10-10T02:30:00.000+08:00

I only just realised that I'm back to my original skin tone.

My tan line from Summer is gone.

The good thing of having a backyard.

Who says you can only sun tan by the beach or the pool?

And not to mention privacy from invading eyes.

Latest Addiction

2007-10-09T03:11:00.001+08:00

I think . . .

2007-10-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

I love him.

But I don't know for sure.

What is love anyway?

Best not to think about it.

Best not to go there.

But I think I love him.

I think.

The Past

2007-10-05T02:19:00.000+08:00

From the moment I saw your eyes lit up when you caught sight of her, I guessed she was the one.

But now I'm even more convinced, because you're willing to be seen with her, and to let your friends know about her.

I once said that I'll let you go if that's what will make you happy.
I stood by my words.

Seeing the way you are now, I'm glad I did just that.

Having at least a person happy, is better than having two unhappy.

I wish you the best of luck with her.

Guys.

2007-10-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

They are so over-rated.

Seriously.

Fruity & Chocolicious

2007-09-21T10:54:00.000+08:00

My breakfast . . .

I pamper myself so.

=D

21st Dinner

2007-09-20T16:20:00.000+08:00

Because my girls spoil me so, we went to The Greek for dinner.
My favourite restaurant!

I'm one happy chick.

=D

They were supposed to be at my house party, but because Evee baby had to work that night, we decided on a dinner instead.

Appetisers were calamari, field mushrooms and sausage.

Mains were grilled prawns on risotto for me, salmon steak for Evee and Claire, and seafood spaghetti for Sharon.

The prawns were big, fresh and juicy, while the salmon was done just right.

Heavenly!

And I must definitely mention again that the grilled vegetables at The Greek is tummy yummy!

*sslurpp*

While waiting for the food, Sharon placed a card infront of me.
It was a card for a male strip club!

Oh. My. Gosh.

We then went on to laugh ourselves silly about how the guy on the card doesn't even look hot, and that we much rather watch female strippers.

So now the plan is to watch BOTH male and female strippers.
Since both clubs are in the same area.

Ohh...
Looking forward to that!

=p

We ordered a bottle of champagne, and I drank quite a bit.
Ended up a lil' trippy and bubbly happy.

After dinner, Evee baby and I headed to Timezone for some narcissistic episodes!

So now we each have each others' faces in our wallets.

Aww...
Such love.

=)

We then headed to Kings Park and ended up chatting up there.

And here's my presents from the girls.

What more can I ask for?

Nothing.

I'm as blessed as can be.

: xoxo :

BIG

2007-09-18T18:47:00.000+08:00

On my way back from work, I spotted a super duper big ass rainbow.

Like . . .

WOW!

My first ever at seeing a full rainbow.
Both ends of it!

Yes yes yes.

I'm easily fascinated.

Now shut up.

Officially 21

2007-09-16T19:17:00.000+08:00

Spent my 21st at work today, from 10am to 6pm.

Quoting Pat:
"Today's your 21st? You must be damn crazy to be working today!"

Had to get up at 8am when the party last night ended at 3am.

Brilliant.

And a customer made me cried.

Just brilliant.

Had my fun, and payback's a bitch.

Damn it.

On a slightly cheery note, photos from 21st dinner and party coming up!

WOOT!

Evee Day

2007-09-14T16:52:00.000+08:00

Lunch with Evee, before going to work.

We're both sushi addict and tofu mania!

And look at the donuts here.

They're not just filling and humongous, but also shapely and colourful!

I miss the small and fluffy-centred donut balls in Singapore.

=(

Pre-birthday dinner with the girls later.

Can't wait!

Waiting & Watching

2007-09-12T23:38:00.001+08:00

Lunch with Brett at Dome, in the city.

While waiting for him to be back from placing the orders . . .

At a bustop in the city, while waiting for Mark to pick me up . . .

Taxi stand is an interesting place to people watch.

And I definitely have to stop going to the city so much.

Whoop!

2007-09-11T07:02:00.000+08:00

Today is gramp's birthday.

May she have a lovely day today, and every other day.
And may she be blessed with fabulous health.

The best gramps I can ever ask for.

Beautiful, cute, funny, caring, nurturing, and everything else.

My idol.

: xoxo :

Random Day @ Carousel

2007-09-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

Lunch with Housie at Carousel.

Tried a store selling Mexican food, pizzas, spuds and crepes.

Hmm...

Spuds are my absolute favourite!
I'm absolutely potatoes.

Next time if anyone asked me what superhero I wanna be, I'll proudly declare "SPUD GIRL".

=p

And did I mention that I'm a dessert addict?

Give me ice creams and cakes anytime!

Anyway, I've been contemplating for a while to get myself inked. Sort of a 21st gift to myself.

But because I might regret doing something so permanent, I decided to test it out.

What better way than drawing on yourself for a couple of days consecutively?

Am thinking of getting a star, because it's simple and has a personal meaning.

But everyone around me was going "oh my gosh! are you sure?", except for Mr Jerome.

"I don't see anything wrong with that."

Ohh...

I heart that guy so much.

=p

Shall see how it goes.

And here's some before bedtime madness from me to you!

Morning in Melbourne

2007-09-09T17:40:00.000+08:00

So how does winter morning in Melbourne feel like?

Imagine this:

Pushing open the door, a fresh burst of cool winter breeze greets you, jolting every nerves and senses in your body. You are instantly awaken, with the bright and cheery sunshine warming you amidst the cold winter morning.

Stretching lazily, you ponder over the day's itinerary, while taking in a deep breathe of cool air. Your body slowly unfurls from its internal slumber, with a stilling sense of peace and happiness.

Can life get any better?

You wonder.

Of course it can.

=)

Before heading out for a full day of walking, exploring and getting lost, I decided to snap the place which is going to be my dwelling for the next one week!

I decided upon The Nunnery because of its reasonable pricing and most importantly, its classic Victorian designs. The moment I came upon the pictures of it online, my heart was sold. The feeling is right, and I'm on a holiday after all.

=D

Breakfast is served daily from 8am to 10am, with pancakes on Sunday. There's also BBQ Thursday nights, and hot chocolate available throughout the day. Perfect for the winter chills!

Brilliant isn't it?

And not to mention, it's located right at the outskirt of Melbourne CBD area, and is right across the road to Melbourne Museum!

Bliss is it not?

Shakespeare my ass.

2007-09-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

One fine day, I decided to stop using short forms, and to compose all my messages and MSN conversations with proper English.

That, I did.

One fine day, I decided to stop speaking Singlish, and to speak proper English.

That, I did.

So now whenever I receive messages from random guys that goes:

"ello, wanna chat?"

"u in austrlia ah?"

"wah! you live very near me hor."

I can only feel two emotions.

To either punch them in the face, or to rob myself of my sight.

I can't help it.

The dictionary made me feel that way.

I have to stop reading it.

Proofread people.

PROOFREAD!

There's also loads of online dictionaries.

Here's my favourite one:

Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary

Fly away

2007-09-02T10:58:00.000+08:00

Housie was telling me about her diving trip to Redang Island, and of how she almost didn't want to leave. She even went up to the proprietor and asked if he's hiring, in which he said yes.

This idea got planted in me, and I think I might go away to an island and experience a quiet and relaxing life, working at a resort or with a diving group.

If I'm going back to Singapore for my University studies, then I'll most probably do just that. Will be staying in Australia till my visa ends in March, then head back to Singapore for a short while before whisking myself away to an island for 3 months, before University life starts in July.

Shall see how things go.
Cross my fingers.

=D

John Mayer - Comfortable

2007-08-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

In the silence of the night, with the new moon glowing.

His boyish smile brings warmth to her amidst the winter chill.

Stealthily, she leaves a good night kiss on his forehead, light as a feather.

"Good bye silly boy"

She whispers as she walks away, touching his nose as she always did, for one last time.

"Be happy"

Rock this.

2007-08-28T19:26:00.001+08:00

My girls a star
My baby, no ones touchin my lady
My girls a star
My sugar, always give me that good love
My girls a star
Believe me, do whatever to please me
My girls a star

My girls a star, I'll build a rocketship
take my rocketship wherever you are
My girls a star, I'll build a rocketship
take my rocketship wherever you are

Wherever, cause look, it really don't matter
like yo girl cool, but look, mine badder
She count my doe, then we get blown
and blow it all like hammer
let's get hammered and make this happen
like the world was endin and we were the last ones
my kinda girl that likes to have fun
like lights-camera-action

My girls a star
My baby, no ones touchin my lady
My girls a star
My sugar, always give me that good love
My girls a star
Believe me, do whatever to please me
My girls a star

Top down let the wind blow
baby girl hands hangin out my window (window)
baby girl got sun glow
might take a sip, but never touch indo (indo)
do anything for me, she's all mine and that's how gonna be
uh huh (uh huh)
hell yea (hell yea)
hey, I know that she love me
love taps get rough like rugby (rugby)
ain't afraid to get touchy
she kisses and she hugs me (hugs me)
ain't never been messy
so fresh so clean just sexy
uh huh (uh huh)
hell yea (hell yea)

My girls a star, I'll build a rocketship
take my rocketship wherever you are
My girls a star, I'll build a rocketship
take my rocketship wherever you are

Now things tend to slip my mind, but somethin that will never
is that your better, that and your clever
so its a bonus your body happens to be sicker than ever
I'm lookin at you while I'm sippin my beverage
party like a rockstar til our heads feel severed
whoa, swear I just lost my head
but if I do, would you love me then?
excuse me you can I be your skin?
whip you in shape, can I be your gym? hmm?
I just wanna be the driver in ya get away car when this movie ends, hell yea!

My girls a star
My baby, no ones touchin my lady
My girls a star
My sugar, always give me that good love
My girls a star
Believe me, do whatever to please me
My girls a star

Holy Crap

2007-08-27T23:08:00.001+08:00

I have one week to write out a full formal report on one of the totalitarian tactics in George Orwell's Nineteen Eighty-Four, making references to its employment during Hitler's dictatorial period and during Stalin's Soviet Union. I also have to comment on it's relevance in today's society.

I totally heart the Australian English curriculum due to its exposure to a wide array of topics and issues, and also totally adore doing research projects.

But NOT when I have an additional four tests on the sideline.

This is crap!

Total bullshit and bloody baboons!

Ignore my random outburst.
I'm usually very docile.

I kid you not!

I shall sulk my way to bed now.
Stuffy nose and teary eyes make Elise a ranting bitch!

Impression

2007-08-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

"Of course in your case, you must be so used to people stating how breathtakingly cute you are, that it just fades into the background ...

I can see I'll have to try extra hard to come up with a suitable compliment for you.

Let's see ... you read the dictionary ... I know!

My dear, you are as pulchritudinous as you are erudite; as fair as a summer's day, as graceful as the ocean, mysterious as the moon and more beautiful than all the stars in the sky.

...well, maybe I need to work on my prose.

Still, it's a start. :) "

Size 8

2007-08-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

I was told . . .

. . . to put on more weight.

I will not!

Bleah ~

(^0^)

Handy girl is Me !

2007-08-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

I changed my first ever light bulb today.
Not just one, but two!

*hops around in joy*

I was totally excited about the task, which left my housemate questioning my sanity. I was practically running in and out of the house to get stuff, and running across the road borrowing screwdrivers from a sweet old neighbour.

And now I know what the heck a Philips screwdriver is!
I know there are different types of them, but never knew that they have such names.

Hahaha.

Being the ever mischievous and loony me, I broke the bulb because I've never done so before, and I wanna see the anatomy of it.

A dull 'POP' and it burst.

Ahh... Satisfying experience.
I'm a happy girl.

=D

While waiting for Nayaab to be back with the new bulbs, Poh Chee and I went loopy and started taking pictures of the front lawn.

The new bulbs came and we took turn fixing them on. And because we are a loopy bunch, we started hollering "Screw you! Why won't you go in? Screw you!" when we had difficulty getting the screws into place.

Trying to screw the screws into place in no easy feat, no wonder we all went screwy!

A poet in the making am I not?
LOL.

To add on to our crazy bonanza, we had this conversation.

Poh Chee:
"We spent the whole afternoon screwing."

Naayab & I:
"What the hell?!"

*goes into laughing fit*

Me:
"Yeah. Three girls screwing. Threesome!"

Sometimes I really doubt my sanity.
I really do.

*grin*

After the intense screwing (okay, I'll stop it), we saw a thick black furry caterpillar crawling on the driveway, making its way to the front door.

In pure girly fashion, we started screaming.

As if that'll deter the caterpillar.

*roll eyes*

Speaking of creepy crawlies, guess what's inhabiting the mailbox?

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.
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.
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.
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SNAILS !

Or as we call them; escargot.

Those gross and nasty perpetrators are having the ball of their time munching on our mails.

Eww....

Imagine those slimes and shits on your mail!
GAG!

But looking on the bright side, they bite through the envelope so we can just take out the letter without the hassle of opening it! Organic letter opener are they not?

Muahaha!

And because it's been raining so much this winter, they are everywhere. Every morning there'll be squashed remains of them all over the pavement as people stepped onto them unknowingly in the dark.

Total grossness.

Yuck.

Well on to more pleasant stuff, just got back from a bar in Curtin University. Had a drink with Poh Chee and Hazel, and we joked and clowned around like three loonies, laughing ourselves silly and nearly in tears.

And there's free hotdogs!
Gluttony.
Yum.

Today was quite a blast and real chilly too.

Gonna head to bed, into the comfort of my warm blankie and baby.

Good night world.

Toodles.

*muack*

Did you know that . . .

2007-08-17T12:46:00.000+08:00

In Australia, induced birth is a very common practice as birth of a baby has to fit into the doctor's schedule.

(ie, the doctor has golf session in the afternoon thus induces labour in the morning)

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Appointment has to be made in order to see a doctor for consultation.

You cannot just walk in to the clinic. They will not attend to you.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Asians are surprised that I even speak Mandarin at all.

"You speak chinese? I am shocked!"

"Yes I do. I'm a Chinese."

Australians are surprised that I can form a proper sentence in English.

"You speak English well. Where are you from?"

"I'm from Singapore, and our first language is English."

"Oh yes."

What's with all these misconceptions of my linguistic ability?

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I will only go back to Singapore when I'm done with college here.

Will not be going back during my October break as the semester exam is somehow dragged into the break period, and not to mention that the external exam starts in November.

WHY ? !

2007-08-11T16:17:00.000+08:00

Why does NUS only have one intake per year?

And why must it be the Jul/Aug period?

Why don't they have a Feb/Mar intake?

I don't want to wait for more than half a year!

I don't want to waste any more time than I already have!

WHY ? !

*ROAARRRR*

OMG - On Melbourne Ground

2007-08-10T13:15:00.000+08:00

Missed my flight on Thursday and had to pay an additional $70 late payment fee to change my flight to the next day.

And because it’s my first time ever to miss a flight, I was so distraught that I cried.

I had to console and convince myself that it’s just a flight and no biggie that I missed it. At the same time, I had to reassure Evee darling that it’s not her fault that I missed my flight.

The gist of it was that we were going around in circles at the domestic terminal because the parking system was atrociously confusing.

So the next day, I got Baby to send me to the airport instead, as Evee darling had to work.

Baby came to pick me up straight from work and because it was still early, we headed to the international terminal as Alexis was flying back to Malaysia for her holiday.

After she checked in, we headed to domestic, where Baby insisted on waiting with me for an hour, and ended up falling asleep.

Having nothing better to do, I started snapping away, and took a secret shot of this really cute toddler.

I love his hair!
Can I take him home?

=p

Because I was on the evening flight, I managed to capture the sunset from above the horizon.

The colour was so intense and beautiful.
It’s one of those sights that simply took my breath away.

Touched down at Avalon Airport at almost 11pm and the temperature was 6°C!

A staggering difference to the 15-17°C range in Perth.

At that moment, I told myself that I’ll never ever complain about Perth’s weather again.

Took a transfer coach (almost an hour) to my accommodation, and by the time I reached, it was past midnight.

All I wanna do was to jump right into bed!

But no matter how tired I was, there’s always time for some narcissism!

After which was time to tuck in tight, and away to dreamland I go.

Ice Ice Baby !

2007-08-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

Today was my first ever encounter with hail.

I happened to be looking up at the sky when I saw a swarm of weird objects spreading right across the sky, and the next thing I know, small balls of ice were raining down!

The sound was deafening as they hit the metal roof of the bus stand and it was rather fascinating seeing them hit the oncoming cars at such velocity.

I was actually wondering if the screen will crack.
Obviously, I have a very active imagination.
Or rather, I wonder too much.

=p

A rainbow after the hail!
Isn't life just lovely?

The whole encounter lasted for a few minutes, and what a sight it was.

=D

Something totally unrelated, I present to you this picture, taken out of pure hilarity.

That's the backview of a guy.

I wonder how I'll feel if my guy's hair is better than mine.

I suppose I'll shave them off when he's asleep.

=)

I love my evilness.

Cuts & Bumps

2007-08-05T14:50:00.000+08:00

Went indoor rock climbing at Rockface with Brian yesterday, and now my arms are sore and aching.

A parting gift for remembrance is the bruise on my lower back, which resulted from slamming against the wall while hanging in midair. Somehow, I also managed to hurt my chest because a region of my sternum is hurting now. And my inner thighs aren't spared from being strapped in the harness.

BAH!

But nonetheless, it was real fun. Lots of laughs and silly jokes.

The last time I rock climbed was during an OBS course when I was 15.

6 years ago!

Have been hitting the swimming pool for three consecutive days now, and going for Body Balance and Yoga whenever possible. Was pleasantly surprised when I managed to touch my toes during one of the stretches.

FINALLY!

*happy dance*

I've always failed my sit and reach.
Always.

I've also discovered small slits on my right wrist and fourth finger while working. I was buffled by the pain I'm experiencing as there was no apparent injuries when I inspected my hand.

Those nasty cuts only surfaced after a while with their usual tell-tale, thin trail of blood.

Bloody cuts.
Nasty little scheming injuries!

In a nutshell, it's just college, work, fitness and social.

And because I'm such a fickle-minded person with a wide array of interests, I've been reading three books simultaneously. I just can't wait to finish one then start on the next!

So right now I'm on The French Revolution, The Black Death; In the Wake of the Plague, and Fast Food Nation.

So many things yet so little time!

Current interests

2007-07-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

Names of human bones.

French Revolution & Marie Antoinette.

United States 2000 Presidential election & Albert Arnold Gore, Jr.

There are so many things to learn about, and so many thoughts with regards to those issues.

It's fascinating!

I love my life.

An Inconvenient Truth

2007-07-26T10:34:00.000+08:00

Perhaps we will be the executor of our ultimate demise.

And if that shall come to be, will we then learn to accept the truth, or to play the great pretense as we always did?

Home Sweet Home

2007-07-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

I'm safely back in Perth now and I'll be posting my Melbourne trip within the next couple of posts.

It was an amazing experience and I've learnt so much about everything else.

Will talk more about that in later entries.
Gotta go unpack my luggage.

And gosh do I miss my bed and Charlotte baby very much!
Had a couple of sleepless nights without my huggies.

Feels good to be back in my crib.
Total love.

现在的唯一

2007-07-12T19:04:00.000+08:00

一切都该结束了。。。

结束;
是將现在挂上句点，也是为了筹备將來新的开始。

让一切美好的回忆都留在心里，永藏在记忆的保存盒。

让那温心快乐的感觉，融为心中的小插曲。

不在乎天长地久或永远，只在乎曾经拥有。

你一定要幸福快乐。

my first portrait

2007-07-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

I just wanna say . . .

2007-07-03T10:57:00.000+08:00

HUMAN BIOLOGY RULES ! ! !

I love that module with all my heart.

=D

Now all that is left is the killer module Physics.
But because I'm such a fortunate girl, I've engaged an Engineering student to tutor me.

And did I mention that he's an absolute cutie?

Hohoho.

Anyway, I do hope that I'll be able to work out those crazy calculation questions on bridges and ladders. And centre of mass too.

Ahh...
Because of Physics, I'm becoming a romantic-less person!

My friend and I spotted a rainbow and she was commenting on how beautiful and nice it was. And what did I say?

"The electromagnetic and light spectrum is going through my mind right now. Do you know that rainbow is formed because of dispersion of white light?"

Her expression, was priceless.
And I swear she nearly kicked me out of the car!
Muahaha.

Yikes !

2007-07-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

I'm in the midst of the oh-so-horrible exam week right now.
Chemistry tomorrow, Biology on Tuesday, and Physics on Thursday.

After which, I'll be flying off to Mel-B on Thursday evening.
Woot!

*happy dance*

I'll be away from Perth for 9 days, in which I'm sure I'll be battling the windy and wet Mel-B (from what I've heard), visiting all sorts of galleries and museums, checking out University of Melbourne (I've registered for their Open Day), and meeting up with my four year old.

Hmm...
So many things to do!

A lil' regret though, should have gone during the Summer break. When the weather is great and there are more outdoor activities to do. But oh well.

I haven't been posting narcissistic picture of myself, and Kerlyn darling wanted to see my new hairstyle. So I've been a total photo whore last night by taking loads of pictures, and being a total sellout by taking pictures of Charlotte baby too!

Muahahaha.

As much as I hate to be part of the crowd (and to admit it), I've jumped onto the crazy Shrek bandwagon and gotten myself a Shrek headband.

And I made Charlotte into a Shrekie bear!

=D

I actually have more pictures of myself, but because I started my photo whoring adventure late in the night at 1.30am, after cramming for Chemistry, I looked like a total poopy head! My eyes were all weird looking, so I took a shot with my eyes closed.

Hohoho.

Okie doke peeps.

It's Biology time.

My favourite subject!

Yippie yippie yeah yeah baby ~

(O_O)

2007-06-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

I want my Daddy Tan & Mummy Lim ! ! !

I want my Brody & Snotty Monkey ! ! !

I want my Gramps ! ! !

Boohoo !
I'm missing them like crazy.

=(

I've moved into the new room and lots of things are still packed. There's no funiture or drawers to hide my stuff!

Need. To. Get. Rid. Of. Stuff.

I've packed a bagful of clothes and bags to give to the Salvos.
But why do I still have so much stuff???

*pouts*

No more shopping for you anymore Miss Tan!

=(

Stressful week due to the upcoming exam and English. Crazy English. Just done with an essay test and now I'm trying to finish up my expository text. Have to design the cover too!

And my topic choice?

Cloning & Organ Transplantation

Am I crazy or what?!
Right now my desk is stacked with books on genetic engineering, cloning, medical ethics, etc.

But it's a really interesting area.
Love it!

Maths paper is on Friday and I have yet to compile my cheatsheet.

MAJOR PANIC!

I'm so doomed.

DOOMED !

Supposed to be celebrating Evee's 21st at Hitz this Friday night, and Metro on Satuday night. But from the looks of things, I'll be a nerd and hit my books!

Sorry Evee darling.

=(

Will make it up to you when I come back on the 14th.

Forgive me baby girl.

;p

One more week and I'll be flying off to Melbourne!

Woot!

room-less

2007-06-26T09:37:00.000+08:00

Finally shifted all my stuff out of the room and into the lounge. And right now, I feel like a homeless!

And I have no idea when can I move into the new room. So there's a really probable chance of me sleeping in the lounge tonight!

Maybe I'll crash at my friend's place.

Argh.

Feeling super pissed off.

There goes my day. What a way to start it. And why do we still have classes on the exam week???

And the most ridiculous issue is that they are still teaching new stuff!

I miss my poly days pre-exam study week!!!

Let me wail and grumble like a spoilt baby please.

Super pissed.

BAH!

P.S.

My dear Delusional Bitch is attached!
Way to go buddy. I'm really happy for you.
And I think she's a really great girl.

=)

So when will it be my turn?
I want my own guy bitch!!!

Muahaha.

In a circle it goes.

2007-06-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

The parody of the situation, alike a fine tuned drama.

The ensuing distance that followed the whilom passion.

How does two transients to be such familiar strangers?

~^*^~^*~^*^~^*^~^*^~^*^~^*^~^*^~^*^~^*^~

Metamorphosis;

A subtle evolution, a cunning disguise of change.

A beautiful illustration of Herbert Spencer's "survival of the fittest".

Busy Bee Me !

2007-06-24T13:28:00.000+08:00

I'm spending a totally fabulous Sunday packing my stuff, finishing up Physics, preparing for English test, and mugging for exam!

I'm the Royal Highness of Multi-tasking!

Muahahaha.

Gotta get all my stuff out of the room by Tuesday for carpet cleaning, and then into the new room on Wednesday.

All this moving chaos right before exam!

How much more appropriate can it get?

*panic*

I shall refrain myself from running around in circles with my hands waving wildly in the air, and screaming my lungs out.

Which by the way, is my favourite activity.

*beams*

My drawing is half done and I have yet to start on the portrait.

Oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh.

I'm scooting off to pack my stuff along to the groove of the music tuned on high!

*shake my bum*

The Cookie Jar

2007-06-22T01:11:00.000+08:00

The last chocolate hot fudge cookie which lies stuck at the bottom of the jar.

Unless I break it, I can't reach it.

Will I ever break the jar?

Or will I just continue to be content with knowing that there is a chocolate hot fudge cookie in the jar?

What if one day someone else comes along and takes the jar away?

What if one day I stop wanting the chocolate hot fudge cookie?

The chocolate hot fudge cookie which is warm in your hand, tasty to the brain and sticks to your heart.

What a sinful treat.

once again

2007-06-18T19:41:00.000+08:00

I am now sporting the shortest haircut I've ever had in my entire 20 years of life (minus infancy of course)!

Snipping my locks off has always serve as a representation of change, signifying the start of something new.

It's a therapeutic act in itself actually.

And so there goes my plan of growing long flowy wavy hair.

*sigh*

I once heard this being said to a lil' girl who's crying because her hair was being cut.

"What are you crying for? It'll grow out eventually."

And yes, it'll grow out eventually.

Just like everything else.

ohh la la ~

2007-06-10T18:15:00.000+08:00

The weather's getting colder and colder day by day ! ! !

I'm gonna turn into a human popsicle soon ~ ~ !

Hmm . . .
I wonder if I taste nice . . .

Muahahaha !

=p

Got caught in a sudden downpour on my way to college on Friday and was soaking wet! Ended up being late for Physics and got teased by Steve. Bleah!

The whole class was staring at me cos I was wet through and through, and quoting David the Evil, "that was cute!".

Boo! What a friend!

Ended up standing at the back of the class for the whole lesson cos I was trying to dry myself with the heater.

Hahaha. Quite a sight I must say.

Tried Box3 (next to Eddy's) at Carousel, and other than the salad which tasted all right, the other dishes were pretty bad.

Quoting Sharon the Picky Eater, "instant food!".

Her steak came out pretty fast, so you can just imagine how instant that was.

And the colour of my margarita was pretty off.

*shrugs*

Tried a new place called Greek Taverna in Northbridge, which has a great cosy atmosphere and delicious food. Their grilled veggies are definitely a must try!

Was sitting near the fire place and I was totally mesmerised by it. The raw passionate dance of the fire and the warmth radiating from it had a calming and hypnotic effect. Felt really good just watching it.

Had Galaktoboureko for dessert, which is warm custard pudding in pastry. The pastry was really heavenly, although too much of the custard wasn't such a delight after all.

I'll definitely go back to try out their other dishes.
I love Greek cuisine!

Anyway, just got back from chilling with Evee, Adrian and Sean.

Had lots of laugh even though I don't understand half the conversation, cos they were speaking in Cantonese!

I could only catch bits and pieces cos my language bank for Cantonese is really limited! But I'm learning slowly, and I definitely know more words now than I do before I came here. I can even speak a few words now!

So that's an improvement I guess.
Haha.

I never knew that guys can look good in skinny jeans, but apparently some can pull it off quite nicely.

And I realise . . .
I'm starting to dig guys with nice wrist and fingers!

BAH !

What is that all about hey ? ? ?

But rest assure, my fetish is still ultimately guys with nice voice!

Hohoho.

Aww . . .
Now I'm missing Mr Therapeutic Voice!

Boo!

summary

2007-06-06T00:58:00.000+08:00

With winter coming up and the start of casual work, my body's starting to feel the fatigue. Feeling really tired out for the past week, and all I wanna do is to cuddle up under the blankie and sleep.

The chilly weather and shorter daylight hours are making my system sluggish, and I guess I'm going through some mild winter blues. The word "depressed" would be way too strong.
Just feeling a little anti-social at times and easily irritated.

Even my source of motivation isn't doing it magic on me at the moment.

Not to mention, semester exam is coming up in 3 weeks' time, with my first paper on 29th June. I'm starting to get a little worried now, but that's not gonna help.
So I just gotta suck it up and hang on.
3 weeks will be over really soon!

My last paper is on 5th July and I'll be flying off after that. Will be away from Perth for 9 days, and hopefully I'll have a blast during the time-off. Just wanna go away to somewhere else and release all the accumulated stress and fatigue. Catch up on those much needed sleep and to laugh a lot.

So right now, it's the prospect of the time-off that is pulling me through.

Hang on there girl!

Work is really enjoyable but I'm starting to feel some slight anger. It's not the customers but the fellow colleagues. It's the difference in working attitude that is rocking my boat here.

I pride myself in my working ethics and I don't give a damn even if that makes me "dumb". I'm being paid to do my job, and I will do it well. That's me, and I stand by it.

But of course, there is a bed full of roses which makes everything better. I have some really wonderful colleagues and managers too. They're a delight to work with!

In order to retain my sanity, I started drawing again. Got some tools today. Was doing pencil sketches on writing paper previously, but now I've got some colours and drawing pad.

Spending time alone sitting on the grassy slope, sketching and listening to my favourite music, is a great way to escape the endless chattering in the cafeteria during lunch time.

3 more weeks and I'll be away from Perth!

I will survive!

Let's jump !

2007-06-01T19:58:00.000+08:00

I'm intending to grow my locks so that I can spot the long and flowy, messy and just out of bed look. But because I ALWAYS snip them off whenever I have the chance to, I've been resisting that overwhelming temptation for quite some time. And it's driving me nuts!

It's been more than 3 years since I spot a length that is way over my shoulder, and I THINK I really wanna try that out. Yet at the same time, I yearn to snip them off cos they're getting too long (according to my standard that is)! And not to mention, being stuck at a length that is neither considered long nor short, it looks kind of weird and is curling all over the wrong places.

Dilemma dilemma.

Or maybe I'm just too fickle-minded!

Was talking to Ellice last night and were talking about fears. Fear of height was mentioned and she said that the best way to overcome it is to go sky-diving. She did it during the April college break and quoting her, "It was totally awesome!"

And so that brought out the crazy urge in me to do it. I've always wanted to go sky-diving and somehow it just got pushed back into some remote recess of my mind. Now that she mentioned it, I wanna try it before leaving Perth!

Care to join me, anyone?

So excited!

Anyway, had my English exam today and I do hope dearly that I'll pass. There's just not enough time to write 3 essays in 2 hours! I've got pretty neat ideas for my topics but not enough time to plan and structure them. So I just scribbled anything that came to mind. Argh.

And there'll be another one coming up on 14th June. English is the only module that has 2 semester exams! Horror!

Hahaha.

Oh well, take care my loves.
Toodles!

=)

2007-05-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

Received a compliment from a total stranger.

"You have a very beautiful smile."

Thank you ~

*blush*

monster house

2007-05-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

Last night the house had a sudden blackout and I had to fumble around in total darkness, with one other housemate who's still awake. We had only three pathetic cell phones to light our way as we headed outside to the power switchboard. And because it rained earlier, the grass was all muddy and yucky.

All the switches were in the right direction and we ended up calling Western Power, and that was when we realised that there was blackout in Bentley, Como, Karawara and Waterford (I'm in Bentley).

But the weird thing was, all the other houses along our street were fine. I messaged Sugar to ask if there's blackout at his place (Bentley), and he was fine too.

What the hell?!

Bloody shiat.

So Evelyn and I decided that there's really nothing we could do except to go to bed, and within 10 minutes, the security alarm started beeping. We tried shutting it up by punching in the security code and just as I walked a few steps, the alarm freaking shrilled! That made me jumped and scared the wits outta me!

Macaroni and cheese!!!

We punched in the code again and desperately tried to shut that damn thing up. And finally it did.

Ended up having a fitful night cos I was so afraid that the alarm will start shrilling again. Had to hug my pink bear to tame those chaotic nerves in me. Damn the house. BAH!

I hate you!
Bleah!

I would have said that last night was one of the worst night ever, but I thought of how some poor soul might be trapped out there in the vast sea because their vessel sunk, and freezing their limbs off while waiting for help to arrive (scene from The Guardian), and I know that I'm one lucky baloney.

So instead I shall say, that yesterday hadn't been the best night ever, but it was all right.

Anyway, I burned my right thumb on the coffee heating pad while working today. I thought that the heating pad was the lid and tried taking it off, only to end up with a nasty shock.

Now there's one white streak across my thumb cos those cells are cooked! It's definitely gonna bubble tomorrow. Damn it.

For a few minutes after burning myself and before the pain sets in, I started feeling cold and was shivering from the core. And now? My thumb hurts like a bitch! Boo!

Hmpf!
I'm such a klutz that I should be nominated as President of Klutzville!
Any voters?

Muahahaha.
All righty loves, gotta go study now.
Take care and lots of huggies!!!

*muack muack muack*

My Chase

2007-05-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

I have decided to apply for Bachelor of Biomedical Science next year, with my first choice being University of Melbourne, followed by Monash University and University of Adelaide.

Bachelor of Biomedical Science enables me to futher into postgraduate courses should I choose to in future, and its range of modules and electives are exactly what I'm looking for.

But getting into that course will be a tough fight if I don't start picking up my pieces now. With one more month to go before the semester exam, I only have so little time left for 5 modules.

My current average is on the low 70% and the minimum entry point for Biomedical Science is at least 90%.

So right now my main goal is to pull up my overall, and that means doing exceptionally well for my semester exam.

Of course, I got to walk the talk in order to make things happen. And that is why I've just informed my friends that I'll be cutting out on the socializing. Thankfully, they are a bunch of sweeties!

I will be cutting out on the cyber world too. I know you peeps totally understand and will be giving me full support. I love you peeps!

For Melbourne, I will work hard. And the results of my semester exam will be my proof. And all you darlings will be my witnesses.

For Melbourne!

my sanity

2007-05-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

There are so many things I wanna say, but I have no one to tell them to.

No more late night phone calls which lasted till dawn, and no more senseless jibberish and thought provoking conversations.

No more impromptu calls to share unexpected joys, random happiness and silent tears.

Some things are better left to those special few who understand and care.

My special few . . .

Kerlyn, CS, Jessica, Brody, Jun Wen.

Play Play Play !

2007-05-22T12:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday morning was so cold that when I blow out a breathe of air, I see "smoke"!
Ohh... My very first winter!
Muahahaha.

Was supposed to be joining my English class for the play The Crucible, but because I wasn't in college for a few days, I missed out on the payment date. So now I'm out of it! Boo!

But fortunately, I managed to find someone who's agreed to go with me.
Yeah!

But will have to wait till his exam is over. Oh well, 2nd June isn't that far away anyway!

Muahahaha.

If I do manage to watch The Crucible, then that will be the second play I've watched in my entire life to date.

Goody good ~ !

Lots of Love from Me to You

2007-05-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

This entry is specially dedicated to the girl who's been in my life for almost 9 years.

We've laughed, we've cried, we've quarrelled, we've almost fought.

We've been inseparable and we've splitted.

But everything is what it is today because of how much we love each other. No matter what happens, it's that love and bond that brings us together again.

We used to share the same interests, the same views and same thoughts. But as life progresses, we blossomed into 2 very different individuals. And now that we're both busy with our own lives and being in 2 different places, we no longer have that luxury of hanging out together.

But despite the differences and distance, our friendship is still going strong.

I'll like to take this opportunity to express my love and gratitude to this very special girl of mine.

And I have a secret to tell you . . .

I wish that you'll be in my life not just for a period, not just for a season, but for a lifetime.

=)

Today is her 21st birthday, and it's a once in a lifetime event.
And not to mention, a very beautiful day indeed.

I may not be there to be a part of the fun and joy, but my best wishes are all for you.

Happy 21st Birthday

Jessica ~ ! ! !

Take care baby girl, and I'll see you soon!

: xoxo :

Physics

2007-05-19T22:19:00.001+08:00

I used to like Physics so much more than Chemistry, but now the reverse has happened.

I love Chemistry and dread Physics.

It's difficult to grasp the concept of motion, with stuff like vertical and horizontal motions, vertical and horizontal circular motion, curves, conical motions and what's not.

My aspiration is not to be an engineer.
Thank you very much.

It's only the concept of motion that is driving me nuts. I have been tempted to drop Physics so many times, but I tell myself that I'm not gonna back away from it. I will not give up just because I do not understand. No way am I backing away from a challenge.

But risking my overall just because of that?

Damn. I don't know.

And to make matter worst, the way the questions are phrased in the papers are so different. Sometimes I don't get what they're asking for.

Take my Chemistry test as an example.
I could do all the questions in the text and I understand the concept. But when I did the test, I was stumped. I had to leave a few questions blank cos I could not grasp what they're talking about, and what they're asking for.

For subjects such as Physics which requires so much thinking, why in the world do they have to further complicate it by phrasing the questions in such a weird way?

It's driving me insane and I just wanna give up. But I know I will not let myself do that.

What is wrong with you?!
Why in the world would you make your own life difficult and miserable?

There are times when I don't even know myself.

But one thing which I know for sure, is that I'm feeling so irritated over Physics now.

Damn you Physics.
I hate you.

totally awesome !

2007-05-16T12:08:00.000+08:00

Just came back from an interview which lasted for barely 10 minutes. And the result? I was hired on the spot. The comments given were that I gave her a good vibe, and that I'm very organised. Why so? Because I gave her a photocopy of all the things she asked for in an envelope.

"Is these for me to keep? That's great! I don't have to copy them down. You're very organised."

"I'm going to hire you now because you give me a good vibe, and I know you'll deliver your best for me."

Woohoo!
I got myself a casual job!

I'm so elated that I did my happy dance on the street just now. Totally embarrassing, but who gives a shit? Definitely not me! Muahahaha!

Had a totally awesome night which sent me to bed smiling, and woke up smiling. And now this great news to start my day off. Brilliant!

I'm on cloud nine right now.

And it just got me thinking.

To sum up what's important to me in life right now, there'll only be 5 things.

Myself
Studies
Family
Friends
That special someone

At this point in time, I'm feeling very complete. Can things get any better? I believe it can. But I'm truly satisfied as it is.

Yes, yes, yes. Sometimes I can feel so grey about life, but there are also rainbow moments (like now!). And before I turn all grey again, I'm going to enjoy and savour every moment of happiness I'm feeling and getting.

Let's all be hippy and merry and do the happy dance shall we?

*muack*

pain pain go away

2007-05-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

Had the runs for 7 freaking times within a span of 16 hours today. Damn my digestive system! I need a new one!!!

I can't help but to wonder when will I start getting dehydrated or to die from the pain.

I feel like swearing... But because I'm trying to be a good girl, I shall not.

#%*(#@%@$&^(*$*

Anyway, got a lil' surprise today which made all my pain go away. Woot!
A lil' surprise from a lil' sweetie pie of mine.

Hohoho.
I'm not telling!

Lalalalalalalalalalala ~

Elise is a happy girl ~

Tralalala ~

*happy dance*

Bleah!

Lots of Love

2007-05-11T20:12:00.000+08:00

Right now I'm trying to give directions to Nicky on how to get to my place from UWA. The other side of the river! And not to mention that it's been quite some time since he came over to Curtin.

Ahh . . .

And did I mention that I'm a directional idiot?

Hohoho.

This will be fun.

Anyway, was reading Brody's blog and nearly cried. He wrote such a touching entry on our family (even though it's a lil' weird).

As quoted:

"i love my grandma and i respect her alot. but sometimes she just won't listen. how i hope Elise is here. a scream from her can save me for a hundred days. DEAR LORD! WHY AM I ALONE IN THIS FLAT WITH NO SAVIOUR?!"

"Elise, she seems like she caught something which she didn't wanna caught. like caught an affair or something. but like mom said, Elise is always emotional."

"No matter how much sometimes I hate my family. No matter how much I wanna isolate em. I still loves my family. I love everyone of em. For the first time i felt that. Maybe because of a broken family from the start. Maybe not. But still I pray everyday that they'll be safe and sound."

"I love to hear mom scream and scold me. I love to hear dad bragging about himself and complaining about how lazy I am. I love to hear grandma saying that I didn't take veggies but in fact I just eaten a whole plate right in front of her a second ago. I love to hear grandpa nag at everyone everyday when he got home drunk. I love to hear Elise cry over the slightest thing. And last but not least, I love to hear Lex telling me about his everyday life."

"I love em for who they are, I'm proud of em for who they are and I'm part of em for who they are. My everyday life wouldn't be complete if they aren't here. My everyday's bits and parts came from my family. Because of em, I got a role. The role of a son, a younger brother and a older brother. Thanks everyone."

"I love em all because they are my family."

Seriously, sometimes I hate that lil' bugger so much. How can you love and hate someone with such equal intensity at the same time?

He's my brother; we fought, we punched, we kicked, we laughed.

And though I'm always trying to irritate the hell out of him, and to get him to admit that he misses me (which he adamantly refuses to!), but I know that he does. In a silent way.

Perhaps that is how my family show their love for each other, by hidding it and doing weird stuff for one another.

I've always declare my family to be dysfunctional, and that I'm a crazy by-product of it. But like Brody said, my family is part of who I am. So if they are dysfunctional, so am I. And I love and am proud of that.

And right now, I miss my family SO much!
I just want to go home.

Argh.

Well, gotta go prep myself cos Nicky's coming over soon.

Friday night!

Woot!

Darwin hates me.

2007-05-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

I find myself so gullible, that I'm utterly appalled.
Yet I'm so amazed at the same time.

How do I stop being so simple and trusting?

I feel so amoebic.
Did evolution skipped me or something?

ahem

2007-05-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

I've been such an emo girl recently cos I've been sick.

Was down with viral since Thursday, and was sent back home with MC for 2 days. Was told to have plenty of rest and to drink lots of honey lemon. It was so bad that I couldn't talk. What a torture! (but obviously a bliss for the people around me)

*roll my eyes*

Trying to be a good girl, I obediently took my medications promptly everyday, even setting my alarm for my middle of the night dosage.

And such obedience left me so medicated that I spent most of my Thursday and Friday sleeping! Talk about plenty of rest!

Received a call from Sugar on Friday night and was told to rest well. I was actually intending to tell him that I've been sleeping so much for the past 2 days, but because I've got the worst voice in the world, I didn't say much. And not to mention I was sleeping when he called me.

REST REST REST!
SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP!

I've never felt so redundant in my whole life, cos I didn't manage to get any school work done throughout the four days I was recuperating.

Was bloviating about it and was told that not doing anything and sleeping all day long are a patient's privileges!

Well... I guess I can make do with that. Haha.

I absolutely hate falling sick cos that's when I feel the most pathetic, and have the most fitful sleeps. I have to constantly adjust my sleeping positions so that I don't cough my lungs out. I was coughing so badly that I actually pulled my muscles a couple of times.

Hate it, hate it, hate it.

But oh well, it isn't all that bad afterall. Was so loved by everyone! Hohoho.

Anyway, I've got my voice back but if I speak too fast or too much, it will break off in mid sentence. Feels like a pubescent boy who's experiencing voice breaking!

Argh.

Sometimes . . .

2007-05-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

. . . I feel overwhelmed.

. . . I feel tired.

. . . I just wanna lie down on the floor and curl up like a ball.

. . . I want a hug.

. . . I want someone to be there.

. . . I want a shoulder to cry on.

. . . I want a back to lean on.

. . . I want to do my happy dance in public.

. . . I want to punch someone.

. . . I want to hurt someone.

. . . I want to scream.

. . . I want ice cream.

. . . I want to run around.

. . . I want to behave like a kid.

. . . I want to go home.

. . . I want to know everything.

. . . I want to feel safe.

. . . I want to laugh.

. . . I want to be unreasonable.

. . . I want to doodle.

. . . I want to sing.

. . . I want to jump around.

. . . I want to be silly.

But most of the time . . .

I forget to breathe.

D&D - Decisions & Decisions

2007-05-02T16:21:00.000+08:00

Attended the Medicine & Dentistry briefing today and now I'm all choked with decisions to be made.

Should I apply for Medicine?

If yes, which Universities should I apply with?

Which state do I wanna go to?

Melbourne? Adelaide? New South Wales? Queensland?
Or stay in Perth?

Should I apply with NUS?

The possibility of going back to study in NUS is the reason why I changed from Foundation Programme to TEE, because NUS only accepts TEE results for Medicine.

Darn. So many questions are floating in my head now, and I'm so confused.

My desire to do Medicine has wavered and I'm more keen on doing Nutrition & Dietetics. But upon careful consideration and tapping into my heart's desire, I realised I'm actually lost on what I wanna pursue next year.

The only thing which I know for certain now, is that I love Human Biology and Chemistry.

Is there such an occupation as a Biochemist?

Heck. I don't even know what that occupation is all about if it exists.

Maybe I should speak with the Student Adviser.

Steve saw my UMAT booklet and commented that Medicine and Health Sciences have never been his interest as a career. In fact, he did not even plan to go into teaching!

He dropped out of college for a couple of years and worked several unrelated occupations, before going back to college again and moving on to University.

For all I know, I might end up going into teaching since I have no idea what I wanna do. Imagine me being a Chemistry or Biology lecturer. Hahaha.

Despite all these seemingly endless questions and decisions to be made, I do know for sure that I wanna go into the Health Sciences sector.

I'm interested in modules such as Human Anatomy, Psychology, Physiology, Anthropology, Pathology etc.

A few weeks back, I was watching an autopsy documentary on TV and was greatly fascinated by it.

I even aspired to be an Anthropologist in the past.

Damn it.
Why in the world did I circle one big round by studying Finance for 3 years, only to go back to square one?

3 years!

Oh well, it's never constructive to dwell on the past. Move on.

I suppose I'll take this one step at a time.
And it doesn't help that I have no one to talk to and to discuss with.

Will be going for the UWA Medicine Info. Evening in two weeks' time, and I'll assess my thoughts again after that.

I've only got 3 more weeks to go before the closing date of registering for the UMAT test.

Yikes! So many things yet so little time!

And not to mention, sectional tests are all coming up in the next 2-3 weeks!

I've been spending way too much time on Chemistry cos I'm in love with it. Better start my H.Biology and Physics soon. Hohoho.

Looking on the bright side, at least I'll be so occupied for the next 1 month to have any time for senseless wandering of my mind. Which is good, and exactly what I need right now!

So perhaps I'll be away from my blog for a while.

But take care my loves. There's always MSN!

Hohoho.

And darn, I'm so excited right now!

Woot!

hmpf !

2007-05-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

If you would, you'll hear that I've got a really sexy voice right now.

All deep and husky...
Ohh so mysterious!

But of course, you gotta pardon my occasional coughing fit.

Can I not take my cough syrup please?
Pretty pretty pleasie please?

Last night's dinner was Italian at Rustic Villa, and had the lamb shank with mash and steamed vegetables. Tried the pina colada, which has a tinge of coconut and pineapple to it. A rather tropical drink.

The lamb shank has a rather strong flavour to it, while the veal was light and tasty.

Had sticky date pudding with ice cream, and tiramisu for dessert. The sticky date pudding tasted like the chinese "fa gao", while the tiramisu was a little too strong.

But a nice dinner nevertheless.

Was pleasantly surprised this week.

Casually mentioned that I was intending to buy a pink fluffy handcuff cos it's so darn cute, and someone bought it for me as a gift!

Hohoho.

And no, I do not have SM tendency!
Stop saying that!
Wahaha.

Received a shelly bracelet from Sugar, which he bought on his diving trip.

Never had the fancy for shelly accessories, but the bracelet looks good when I put it on.

And it gets warm from my body temperature.
Interesting!

Bought Sugar a gift too but have to wait for it to be delivered. When I first saw it, I just had to get one made for him. Was supposed to be a surprise, but I blurted it out.

Anyway, was threatened by this particular sadistic soul to take the cough syrup and I complied. The taste isn't that bad after all as it is orange flavoured. Now I'm just waiting for the drowsiness to kick in and off to bed I'll go.

And because I have no idea how much 15ml is, I used a measuring spoon!

Okie dokes, I'm tired.

Went to the gym today even when I'm sick.
I'm obviously trying to stage my own death.

Argh.

Can someone please baby me?!

Hmpf!

And . . .

Happy 21st Birthday

to my dearest CS ! ! !

Yes I know I've wished you Happy Birthday so many times, but let this be the final one!

Hohoho.

pamper me

2007-04-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

Sore throat - Checked!
Headache - Checked!
Feverish - Checked!
Tired - Checked!

The result of my very first Autumn.

I'm not speaking a single word to anyone tomorrow, or until my throat gets better.

And I need a cuddle!

*boo hoo*

all well ends well

2007-04-27T19:00:00.000+08:00

The first week of Term 2 has been quite a delight.

When the progress report came out for Term 1 before the college break, I saw that I did not meet the course requirement for Human Biology. That cracks my head open cos I can't think of what is it that I've done, or have not done, to render such a report. And worst still, they sent a letter back home to my parents.

So I asked my lecturer what requirement is it that I have not met, and surprisingly, I'm clean. So I guess it's the International Office then. He said he'll explain it to the office that there must have been a mistake. What a relief.

And then there's my English presentation, which went jolly well. Love it!

Was slightly late for Physics today due to the usual sensitive stomach issue, and on my way of walking frantically to the college, DB called me from behind. Apparently his bus was late. And so the two of us were rushing and worrying ourselves silly with the possibility of Steve not letting us in to the class.

But all ends well and Steve only asked our reasons for being late.

"So why are you late?"

"I missed the bus."

"All right. And how about you Elise? You missed his bus too?"

"No! I was stuck in the toilet."

Halfway through the class when Steve left us to work out the problems, he came over to chat with me and my lab partner. He said something which both shocked and amused me.

"So Elise, why are you late? The two of you coming together. Too much of a coincidence isn't it?"

"What?! I was right in front of him when he called me. His bus just happens to pull in at the same time."

"Are the two of you really just friends?"

"Steve! You have such an over active imagination!"

"Oh no I don't."

He then laughed at me and walked away. What a lecturer!

And why is it so hard to believe that a platonic relationship is possible between a guy and a girl?

Oh my gosh! Spare me the anguish!

I told DB about it when class ended and both of us laughed ourselves silly.

However, the real icing on the cake was bumping into Sugar. Though it was just a brief encounter, I've been smiling over it till now. Hohoho!

Pardon the bimbotic me, people. Lol.

What a way to end my day!

(^0^)

Anyway, will be heading to Metro tonight. There's this MOS event held by the Singapore Students Society again.

Was approached by 2 of the students on Wednesday and their selling approach just turns me off. Made up my mind not to go but Sharon went ahead and bought my ticket, in case I change my mind. Damn. And the girls are telling me to go.

So I'll be clubbing later on, in the cold cold Autumn night, and most probably get myself pissed off real bad from being bumped and shoved and elbowed all through the night.

Wow. I'm so looking forward to that.

Oh well, gonna go grab a short nap now. It's been a long but delightful day!

*grin*

Turns Me Off

2007-04-24T23:47:00.000+08:00

When a person is just plain lazy by nature, he will come up with a thousand and one crap excuses to avoid doing anything, even if his life depends on it.

And that's just the kind of person you are.

Motivation has never been a regular word in your dictionary, unless it concerns a gain or advantage. You only demand and never give anything in return. You do not play fair.

You have the ego of the typical caveman, expecting your girl to do as you wish and to bow to your every demand. You're just a civilisation away from dragging your woman by her hair.

You are the typical guy who lust over the stereotypical girl with long straight hair and snow white complexion. You want the girl-next-door because you cannot stomach a challenge.

You can never understand the meaning of "back off", thinking that being shamelessly relentless in your pursuit is the way to get your girl.

You, are NOT my type of guy.
Never is, and never will.

So stop your shameless act and pull yourself together. Do something to improve yourself. Don't be so damn proud of the fact that you've become stagnant. It's revolting.

I can never appreciate a guy who doesn't have drive, fire, passion and goal in mind. I will never like a guy who doesn't know when to push or pull, or to treat his woman right. And worst of all, I will never be interested in a guy who doesn't want to improve himself.

Don't come up with those crappy excuses to justify your laziness, and don't try to prove me wrong when I hit the spot. It only makes me despise you even more.

And please stop calling me by names which are meant for the special someone. It makes me cringe. I swear it does.

And regardless of how long it takes, nothing will develop. So drop the you-never-know-what-lies-ahead tactic, and the give-it-some-time approach. It just grosses me out that you do not know when to stop.

I'm not the object of your entertainment, and I'm not the girl for you. I'll never tolerate crashing out on the couch all day and doing nothing. And I do not fancy being stuck in a stagnant environment forever. If I can improve some aspects of my life, I will.

I want a guy who will go to the gym with me, go for a run or do fun stuff. Maybe I'll hang around a couch potato in the past because I'm one, but now that I've changed my lifestyle, so have my taste and expectations.

A cheeky guy can be charming too, provided he knows where to draw the line. Even though I have an abnormally high level of tolerance, I'll still blow up in due time. So don't go pushing my buttons to test how far you can go.

How many times must I tell you, or how else should I put it to you, that I will never like you beyond that of a friend. How will you ever get it into your brain?!

You're starting to irritate the hell out of me and my patience's running really low.

Back off now before you threaten the existence of this friendship.

I tried letting you down in a nice way but you insist on staging your demise.

So there you have it.

BACK OFF!

Petrified!

2007-04-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be the start of Term 2, and I hope everything will be so much better. I screwed up my Term 1 so bad that if I don't do anything to make up for it this Term, I'll be beyond salvation.
Seriously!

Time flies and soon it'll be May. And before I know it, the final exam will be here.
Darn it.

And did I mention there's a mid year semester exam in June?

I need a break!

Oh wait, I just had my break.

$%@*(%*@*%@*#($@%*&^#)

Sexy Greenies

2007-04-20T07:57:00.000+08:00

Schwarzenegger urges greenies to get 'sexy'
April 12, 2007 - 9:29am
Source: ABC

California Governor Arnold Schwarzenegger has told environmentalists they needed to stop nagging and make their cause sexy, likening it to bodybuilding's evolution from a weird pursuit to mainstream.

"Bodybuilding used to have a very sketchy image", the former bodybuilding champion told an environmental forum at Georgetown University.

"It ha fanatics and it had weird people, but we changed that ... it became sexy, attractive," he said.

"Like bodybuilders, environmentalists were hought of as kind of weird and fanatics also, you know, the serious tree huggers," Governor Schwarzenegger said.

He said those pushing for limits on greenhouse gas emissions and other pollutionwere not on the fringe, but in the centre of the debate on global warming, adding that the environmental movement nedds to get to the point where it "is no longer seen as a nag or as a scold".

"We have to make it mainstream, we have to make it sexy, we have to make it attractive so that everyone wants to participate," he said.

In Washington to meet with the head of the Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) and Democratic Senator Diane Feinstein of California, the Republican Governor said politicians who oppose acting to curb greenhouse gas emissions will endanger themselves.

"Your political base will melt away as surely as the polar ice caps," he said.

You will become a political penguin on a smaller and smaller ice floe that is drifting out to sea. Goodbye, my little friend. That's what's going to happen."

- Reuters

Well... that's a rather interesting point of view I suppose. Imagine bikini-clad women and hunky half naked men planting and weeding, cleaning out the swamps, and having lots of fun. Now a most likely commercial of that is playing in my head.

I'm sure there will be so many more volunteers once the whole business of cleaning up and being responsible for the environment is sexified and commercialised to appeal to the mainstream.

Whatever happens to the good old loving for the habitat you live in?

And I really marvel at his last comment.

"Goodbye my little friend."

Moods of a Woman

2007-04-18T10:21:00.000+08:00

An angel of truth and a dream of fiction,
A woman is a bundle of contradiction.

She's afraid of a wasp, will scream at a mouse,
But will tackle her boyfriend alone in the house.

Sour as vinegar, sweet as a rose,
She'll kiss you one minute, then turn up her nose.

She'll win you in range, enchant you in silk,
She'll be stronger than brandy, milder than milk.

At times she'll be vengeful, merry and sad,
She'll hate you like poison, and love you like mad.

Autumn by the Beach

2007-04-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

Headed to scarborough beach today and I think that's a really nutty decision. Cos it's autumn right now and today's temperature is 24 highest!

And it sure was chilly. I think I've caught the cold bug.

The beach was rather deserted, except for a few families who's there for the barbie. And there's quite a handful who's doing para-sailing. I wonder if I got the sports right.

The girls headed down to the water but I didn't. Cos I didn't bring along any spare clothings. Hahaha! I've already made up my mind not to go into the water even before I left the house. Hohoho.

Got a lil' bored and ended indulging myself in a lil' bit of narcissism!

The weather proved way too cold and we packed up. But instead of heading off, we went to a cafe nearby to wait for the sunset.

Aww...
What a way to end the day.
Beautiful!

Alrighty people. I've had a beautiful day, and hopefully so have you.

*hugs*

Ahoy Sailor !

2007-04-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

Ever since I know of the existence of the Maritime Museum in Fremantle, I’ve wanted to visit it so badly. And today, my wish has been granted, with the company of a like-minded soul!

The weather was good, it’s the college break, and having set out bright and early, makes the day seems almost magical!

I left my college pass at home, but fortunately, the ticketing man was nice enough to still give me the concession rate. Yeah!

Purchased the tickets to the submarine tour too, and had an hour and a half to kill. So we toured the museum, and boy was it interesting!

Came across this rather hippie looking vehicle, and upon closer look, it has some really interesting bumper stickers on it!

I especially like the one that says “Don’t bother knockin’ if this van’s rockin’”.

We continued on and saw a variety of boats and ships. There’s even a buoy which is made to display as if it’s floating in mid air!

Then we came to this section where the tools used for building a ship are displayed. There’s even a miniature model of the structure of a bridge.

Interestingly, there’s a dummy hanging from the ceiling which fascinates me no end, and DB kept laughing at me. Bugger!

Moving on, we came to a section where there’s display of the tools used to catch fishes, lobsters and crabs, and even some models of the different kind of fishes.

One thing which really caught my eye was this old school goggle made of only the eye lens and had a tube tied to it. It’s brilliant how simple this device is. DB commented that it most probably didn’t work very well.

It actually baffles me that there is a section on the different spices, and even videos of men in weird costumes, playing the role of spice merchants and talking about some stuff which I didn’t really pay attention to.

We moved on to the second level and there’s a ship which you can step on to! DB was too afraid to join in the fun. Lol.

Further on, there’s a sailing boat which is used for competition and there are lots of dummies on it! Of course, being easily amused, I got real excited over it and became the butt of DB’s relentless teasing again.

We saw a display of the battery used in a submarine, which was said to generate 2 volts. And there are approximately 400 of such batteries on board, in order to generate 800 voltage. I can imagine how bulky it was as the battery is at least half my size!

Submarine time finally arrived and we were given a brief history of the submarine in question.

Standing high up on deck of the submarine gives a really good view of the surrounding.

In order to descend into the submarine, we had to go down a narrow flight of steps with our faces towards the step. It was kind of hard to get through and I was in constant fear of falling backwards and flat onto the ground!

The mess of tubing on the ceiling are the air supply, and the structures with the red tapes on them are the vents for the marines to plug their air tubes on the suits which they wear when the sub is in danger, or starting to get waterlogged.

The sub guide was explaining how the air supply in the sub works, and I switched off once I heard the chemicals involved cos it reminds me of chemistry! Haha.

The torpedo launchers reminds me of a space craft cos of its complexity and lighting. And do you know that sometimes the marines sleep on the empty torpedo beds when there’s not enough bunk beds?

We then moved on to the control room where there are an entire mass of equipments! Torpedo trackers, locator, graphing machines, navigator etc.

And did I mention dials?

I’ve never seen so many dials at one go in my life!

And of course, there’s the more domestic side of the sub.

And that concludes the sub tour. It was really a feast for the eyes today and I’m feeling really satisfied.

DB and I then caught the rail into the city for more nonsensical rattling!

road trip

2007-04-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

To a place which is 40 minutes off the city, when travelling within the regulated speed limit.

To a place where a dead kangaroo lies in the middle of the road, with it's head gone.

To a place where people coined it as "birds wouldn't lay eggs there".

I nearly lost all sensation in my butt.

Street Arts Festival

2007-04-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

Headed to the Fremantle Street Arts Festival today and boy am I excited!

I'm a lover for the Arts and I visit galleries all by myself.
Simply because I couldn't find anyone who wouldn't raise their eyebrows at me, like I'm from another galaxy, when I ask "Would you like to go to the Art gallery/Museum/Insert-random-art-activities?".

I used to be in the Arts stream back in secondary school, taking up Arts, Literature and Geography.

But woe be me! Having not done anything artsy for the past few years, my innate artistical "talent" has dwindled to almost non-existence!

Now I can only reminisce the good old days by looking at my almost tattered sketch books.
Well, such is life people. Sad but true. Ouch.

First up, we headed over to Little Creatures for our first performance. Little Creatures is a brewery, and from breathing the air alone, I reckon one could be intoxicated!

Here we have Mama Lou; extraordinaire and super strong woman!

She picked out a man from the audience and appointed him the role of being her ultimate arch nemesis, making him wear an orange spandex! It was really funny.

Mama Lou challenged him to a competition of tearing up a phone directory, in which she won the feat. She really is strong!

Following Mama Lou, is a woman who could spin several hoops around her waist, and manipulating them so that they end up spinning at different parts of her body. Her finale was spinning 20 hoops!

I could hardly keep a hoop spinning for one mintue!
Haha.

We then headed back to the main shopping area of Fremantle where there are more performance spots.

Decided to sit around for the Firenix performance, whereby the guy juggled fire sticks, tried to burn himself, and swallowing fire of course!

A young boy was asked to be a volunteer and all he did was to stand at a side, holding a metal clothes hanger above his head for a long time. Poor boy!

But he's rather cute.
Oh! The pedophile in me!
Hahaha.

Waited around for the FyreDance performance but it was back slotted. And since it was so freezing cold, we ended up skipping the show.

The word "newport" reminds me of The OC, which reminds me of One Tree Hill, which in turn reminds me of the guy who's crazy over One Tree Hill!

You know who you are.

Did I ever mention that I have a really weird train of thoughts?
I have the ability to relate two totally different things together and that always leaves my friends puzzled, until I explain to them how it came about to me.

And that of course, just cranks up my weirdo-meter up one notch.

And ohh...
We saw a rainbow after a brief drizzle!

Intellectual Weekend

2007-04-06T01:38:00.000+08:00

The weekend was spent studying for all the tests before the first college break, and I nearly went crazy!

Well… Not really. I was just so bored that I went a little loony. Lol.

The desk proved to be too small as it was cluttered with loads of stuff, and I just can’t sit still for a moment while studying at the desk. And so my studying extended all the way to the bed!

Once in a while when I need to stretch my legs, I’ll just prop them up on the bed and study at the same time. It was indeed a real leisurely position to be in. Haha.

Soon, boredom took over and I started snapping pictures of random things!

That bruise on my leg is so damn stubborn and it just won’t go away. It’s been more than a week and it’s still the same colour. And if you take a closer look, it has some weird purplish bumps.

Prolong hours of studying doesn’t just make a person go nutty (out of pure boredom), but also induces a horrible headache!

So what’s the cure for it?

The colour of the capsule is just so beautiful that I’m totally smitten!

The clear green of it is so hypnotic. And so I shall declare that Advil is now my favourite pill!

And ohh… It’s finally college break!!!

So excited!

Fishy Mambo

2007-04-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

Tried out a new dining place in Northbridge during the weekend, The Fishy Affair Garden Restaurant.

I totally dig the name cos it's really interesting, and not to mention, scandalous!

And besides, I was having a crazy craving for fish that day (partly because I needed brain food for the upcoming tests. haha).

The entree was lobster bisque, which in my opinion, tasted really horrible. It was too salty for my liking and has a really strong flavour to it.

Of course, that's because I usually add no flavouring to my food at all! I prefer au natural.

And then came my all time favourite - caesar salad!

Halfway through it, I nearly choked as I bite into this chunk of really salty stuff, and I had to down quick gulps of my margarita (which was oh so bitter!). Imagine the transition from extreme saltiness to bitterness. Not very nice I must say.

Anyway, was later told that it might be the whole chunk of cheese which I bite into.

By the way, I've never liked bitter beverages. I'm more of a vodka/chivas girl than a beer girl. Next time if you see me drinking beer, do take note of my expression. Cos I'll definitely scrunch up face after swallowing it. Should be quite a funny expression. Lol.

I do like pure black coffee though, but I really can't recall the last time I had any form of coffee. Definitely never had one since I came to Perth. Not even the starbucks/gloria jean coffee.

Next up was the main course, Fishy Platter for Two.

There were yabbies, lobsters, scallops (the only shell I consume), oysters, mussels, prawns, calamari, potato wedges and these 2 wrapped up items which I have no idea what they were (minty & tasted like chinese).

And of course, I wasn't spared from the "try-the-oyster-it's-really-fresh" and "you-don't-know-what-you're-missing-out" talks.

I guess I'll never get the chance to go to Oyster Bar then. First it was Benjamin who mentioned that he went to Oyster Bar and wanted to ask me along, when he remembered that I don't eat oyster. And now one more person is saying the same thing.

Can't I just go there and not eat oyster?!

*pouts*

Shortly after dinner, was told that Metro was having Mambo Night. Yes, Mambo Night as in the Mambo Night in Zouk.

What can one expect? It was organised by the Singapore Student Association of the 4 Universities.

And of course, I get to experience the typical clubbing scene as when I'm back home. All the guys were just standing around and looking here and there.

And it won't be complete without the usual excuse-me-while-i-shove-you-aside-continuously-
to-walk-in-and-out-of-the-dance-floor crowd.

It really feels like home that night.

And what's clubbing without all the weird things happening?

I got drinks spilled on me twice, and had a random guy coming up to me saying "I like you" and kissed me.

I would have punched him if I hadn't been in total shock.

*glares*

And I seriously look so retarded in both pictures! Muahahaha!

Idleness

2007-04-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

Eating healthy leaves me feeling hungry . . .

Prepared mango & avocado salsa (real kickass!), caesar salad (elise style), and grilled chicken maryland with mushroom for dinner.

My first healthy meal of the week!
Considering I've been either eating out, or eating instant/junk for the past few weeks.
Tsk tsk. Need to get my system back on track!

Went grocery shopping today and I bought nothing but veggies and fruits.
Yes I know, I'm a health freak.

And did I mention that I'm gonna cut chips out from my life again?
Well yes I am. I did that once and I went half a year without any chips!

Anyway, was just told that dinner was yummy. Wahaha!

I would have never imagined myself cooking stuff like that (other than instant & egg) 6 months ago, and yet now I am! Hohoho.

So by the time I go back home, I reckon I can prepare a nice meal for my family and friends. And Jerome, you can finally look forward to something other than pasta!

*happy dance*

One thing though, I'll need to learn how to cook chinese. Hee.

Tomorrow will be my first day of getting myself back into shape (physically & mentally). Breakfast will be muesli & fruit loaf, caesar salad for lunch, and pasta for dinner. And should I get hungry (which is most probable), I've got some salsa left, and apples & banana!

And I'm gonna hit the gym in the morning, and get at least 8 hours of sleep everyday.

Yes I know, too damn healthy!
I can imagine Fana going "oh my goodness. you must be crazy elise!"
And it just crossed my mind that Benjamin once commented that I look like someone who eats bird seeds.
Hahaha.

Oh yeah, I'm officially having my 2 weeks college break now. And so far, I've got no events planned. How pathetic!

Hmm...
Actually I'm going to the Fremantle Arts Fest this weekend. And I've got verbal plans with Delusional Bitch to go whip hunting, and perhaps Rottnest.

"I'm looking for a whip."

"What? Whip?"

"Yeah. Not the sex and torture whip whip. But the Indiana Jones whip whip. I collect all kinds of weapons. We should go whip hunting one day. An outing just for that."

"Ok sure."

For a moment there I really thought that DB's talking about the black leather fetish whip. Lol.

And yeah, there is a supposed Fremantle Fish & Chip rendezvous with a couple of guys from school. If my memory serves me well, John might be going away on a trip, and Benjamin might be flying home.

GAH!
When ever is that rendezvous ever gonna materialise then?!

*fuming*

Oh well, I'm tired.
Nighty night darlings!

*muack*

Colorgenics

2007-03-31T16:29:00.000+08:00

Came across this link to some psychology test thingy from Sharon's blog. Realised that it's rather true in describing her, and so I thought I'll give it a go.

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favourite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

That, is so freakingly true. I got a shock when I read "rock your boat", cos that's a phrase I've been using a lot these days.

And yes, I've been experiencing some problems lately. I've done everything I could and yet it is still stagnant. I'm now trying to give up on feeling frustrated over it, and to let it be. If it will pass, it will pass. I'm going to try my best to not give two cents worth of attention to it anymore. I'm sick and tired of feeling as if I'm gonna burst from the sheer frustration of not being able to change anything.

And with regards to the "going it alone" part, I am left speechless. I've adopted the mentality of doing everything myself. I will only ask for help if I've exhausted all my own available resources. Just the other time, I walked all the way from my former accommodation to the present one, carrying my full length mirror, at 8pm. I could have asked someone for help, but I damnly refused to. And yes, I can be so stupidly stubborn and head-strong at times.

I absolutely hate it when people try to dictate what I should or should not do or say. Go stuff yourself people! Do you think I really care what you think? Don't tell me what to do or how to behave. I belong to myself and I am nobody's bitch except my own. Get it?

And yes, I hate conflicts. I hate arguements. And that is why no matter how unjust I felt, I keep it to myself. You can be blasting at me with all your might, but I'll still be sitting there all quiet and expressionless. BECAUSE I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO QUARREL, & I DON'T SEE THE NEED TO! WHAT'S WITH ALL THE FIGHTING & SENSITIVITY?

It may hurt me a whole damn lot but I still won't tell you. I may be crying my heart out but it won't be in your presence.

If at this point, any one of you wanna tell me that I'm such a boring person, you can go fuck off. Cos I don't care. I embrace my "boring-ness", so sue me.

People, like me and love me as who I am. Accept everything about me. If you want to change me to fit into your own perfection, then I won't be authentic no more. What fun is there in that?

Embrace my silliness, my randomness, my moronity, my absolute nonsense. Embrace my sincerity, my nice-ness, my silent affection, my craziness.

Embrace and accept me. Not someone you want me to be. It's deal or no deal people. I won't mourn over your lost. And even if I do (only for people I care about), I'll get over it eventually.

Here's a shout-out to my peeps (being the emotional crap I am).

Thank you Farhana & Cheryl, for accepting all my weirdness and random flare-ups. Thanks for being your lovely selves, and for bringing such joy, laughters & sometimes frustrations into my life. No matter how far apart we may be right now due to our own individual commitments, we'll still be that bimbotic threesome (aka mean girls). Hee! And I'm absolutely missing you girls so much! *hugs*

Thank you Kerlyn, for being that supportive pillar in my life. Thanks for just being there, with your silent concern and comfort. You can so totally read my mind (which can be frustrating at times), but you know I love you to bits. May we have many many more of 6-years in the coming. And you can forget about running away from the responsibility of being my bridesmaid! Muahaha! *hugs*

Thank you Jessica, for being that crazy and cute girlfriend you are. We've been through so much ups & downs in this friendship, but we still always end up being there for each other. We may be far apart, but you know I'm here for you. Thanks for being my crazy bitch (in the most affectionate way), and for being that honest friend you have always been! *hugs*

Thank you CS, for being the most wonderful guy friend ever. Thanks for being my "personal IT support", and for enduring all my nonsense. You never hesitate to help, and often go the extra miles. Whatever am I to do without you? Thanks for being so fabulous and wonderful. You know I love you. Hee. And please be more careful when you play sports. *hugs*

Thank you Adrian, for letting me win over your xbox. Thanks for being there even though you have your own stuff to deal with, and thanks for caring. We may be busy with trying to achieve our goals right now, but it is comforting to know that there is someone there to provide the occasional reassurances when the going gets tough. And of course, to also share all those random happiness, opinions and impromptu inspirations. *hugs*

Thank you Jerome, for always being there, to listen to my seemingly endless grumbles, and random weird thoughts. Thanks for enduring my "evilness" and craziness. Yes I know I'm really nutty, and yet you were kind enough to pretend to be nutty too. Hee. You're a billion dollars to me! Don't be so caught up in your work that you forget to eat or sleep. And please, you're NOT a bionic man, no matter how delusional you may be. Wahaha! *hugs*