:: eLise is me ::: One of those days

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

La vie est Belle <>

One of those days

Maybe I don't want anymore, maybe I don't care anymore.

The starvation from familiarity is sapping all the energy out of me.

Maybe it's time to head back to my comfort zone.

It is almost a year and yet I still feel this way.

Some days, the absence of everyone and everything hurts so much that I huddle up in a bunch, crying alone in the corner.

There is so many things which I miss.

Especially the people.

The people who show their silly sides, the people who enjoys some crazy fun.

Those unpretentious and unconditional love from them.

Always there without any motive, always there because they care.

A place I call my home, with people I call my loves.

I just want to go home, because some times it hurts so much.

Growing up is tough and no doubt, I have grown so much.

But some days, I just want to be that little girl brimming with smiles over the kitty pen her Dad bought for her.

Some days, I just want to be that birthday girl so filled with love by a surprise candle on her piece of Golden Rush at NYDC.

Some days, I just want to be that big sister bloviating to her brother who pretends not to listen but actually is.

Some days, I just want to be that friend having dinner with her bestie at Crystal Jade.

Some days, I just want to be that blushing girl on a date with her crush.

Some days, I just want to be all that I used to be.