:: eLise is me ::: I guess this is it.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

La vie est Belle <>

I guess this is it.

You and I made it clear right from the start that should either of us stop liking each other, it'll be made known to the other party.

I know you aren't used to someone like me. I'm far too quiet, and not expressive enough.
I'm not used to someone like you either. You're very expressive, and outgoing.

There had been quarrels over this issue times and times again, and I think you finally gave up.

It has been brewing in my mind for the past few weeks, to tell you this . . .

"If you find someone whom you think you have a better chance of being happy with, just let me know."

But I never got around to telling you that, because me being me, I kept everything to myself. You always tell me that I'm not transparent. That I have to tell you how I feel.

I guess I should have told you that sooner, instead of letting you carry on with this unhappiness and misery.

I'm not ignorant of everything that's going on between you and I. Things that should have been trashed out, we didn't manage to. And it just piled up and built up.

It's meaningless to say all this now yeah?

You once told me that you sensed a barrier from me, and asked me to just let it go. But because I know my weakness, I didn't.

Unknowingly, I think I might have fallen for you.
And this is what I've been dreading. Cos I know I fall hard when I do.

But as promised, I'll be letting you go.
I'm not going to pretend that it's easy, nor am I going to dramatise it.
I will get over it eventually. I always do. It's just a matter of time.

Guess it's just not meant to be.
You'll have a better chance with someone else.

But thank you for your lope-sided smile, your boyish grin, your irresistible tantrums, your reprimands whenever I left the lights off when we went out, and your reminders to lock up.
Thank you for just being you.

And I'm sorry for all the nasty things I said.

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

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Ending

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Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love

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Yours Truly... Elise Tan