:: eLise is me ::: Self-Stress.

Monday, December 12, 2005

La vie est Belle <>

Self-Stress.

I've already known gazillion years ago that I've been self-inducing stress.

I've also already known gazillion years ago that no one's expecting anything from me.

Nobody gives me the burden of having great expectations of me.

This I know.

But why is it that I keep self-inducing stress upon myself?

It's come to the point whereby I wanna disappear from the face of the earth. To hide away from everyone. To be all alone and in eternal solitary confinement.

I'm starting to hate everything.

There's so many things I wanna achieve and I know I'm capable of achieving them. But right now, I just feel that my life is rather screwed up. It seems like nothing is ever going right for me.

My table's in a mess.

My wardrobe is chao.

My hair is like shit.

My hormones are creating havoc.

My gramps are nagging non-stop.

My dad doesn't seems to give two-cents worth.

My brother is crap-bag.

The house is falling apart.

The TV is spoiling.

My laptop is lagging.

I've having a terrible headache.

NYP is drilling me like mad.

Can't everybody just leave me alone for once?

I came to realise . . .

I'm not capable of living with anybody.

I can only live with myself.

Cos I dislike having people invade my personal space. I hate people disrupting my peaceful dome.

I dislike children.

I dislike cats.

I dislike my brother.

I dislike my gramps.

I dislike where I am.

I dislike practically everything except myself.

And so . . .

Should one day, when I decide to really leave for good . . .

I'm sure the world will be so much better.

I hate myself.

All about

: elise :

Jack (or is it Jane?) of all trades,
(almost!)

but Master of none.
(trying to!)

This is my paradise, where I indulge my senses grandiloquently.

A collective effort to keep family & friends updated, and for random strangers to pop by.

I wanted to put a HUGE picture of myself in this space, but being the technologically challenged person that I am, I can't figure out the mojo of it.

So I guess I'll just have to make do with scattering loads of random self-shots all over the blog!

: xoxo :

Hugs & Kisses

: xoxo :

: blabbers :

Gallery of

: memoirs :

Ending

: credits :

Inspired by:

JUICE & Undying Love

Edited by:

Yours Truly... Elise Tan