In the past few days, quite a number of things came up. This really leads me straight into depression. Or should I say withdrawal?
Now, I just feel like hiding. Hide away from whatever has happened, hide away from whatever will happen, hide away from everyone. Just, hide away from everything.
Things are moving too fast, and I am moving too slow. I can't breathe, it seems. I'm really tired. I need a break. A real good break, to prepare myself before strutting towards the hectic future ahead of me.
Who can I bloviate my problems to? I need someone. Somebody.
School is starting to feel like a burden to me. Little did I realize that from now till the day I graduate, I have to be on the move constantly. Let me illustrate it to you.
20 weeks TEP (in school from 8.30am - 6pm everyday) -> 13 weeks of study -> 2 weeks break -> 2 weeks exam -> 11 weeks IPP (working office hours everyday) -> Study. And then, graduate. I've already stated whatever breaks I have. As you can see, there's only a 2 weeks break for me to catch my breathe, and then move on.
I'm now in the 20th week of TEP and that means, starting from next week, it's back to classical modular studying. I really hope I'll be refreshed enough to do well for my new semester. I have to do well. I must do well.
Sounds like I'm exerting extra burden and stress to myself. But I can only say, I have to. Just hope I will not break down or just collapse. I'M A STRONG WOMAN!
Anyway, better not dwell too much into these depressing stuffs. Well, will be seeking a counselor before my new semester starts. Have some personal issues that need to be attend to, and many things in me that need to be pour out. Better fix an appointment soon.
Hmm, gotta go finish my assignments now. If not I'll get into deep trouble. LOL.
In a nutshell, my thought of the day: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL! LOVE YA!"
Signing out. Tata.
